Hope and believe | Sunsun ff |

Chapter 3

TW: mettion of su*cide

(Continuation of the flashback, Sunghoon's POV)

"Well at the start of middle school, he talked, like a lot, he was quite popular too" I paused reminiscing about the time the boy would interact with others.

"His laugh and smile were always so bright. He could make anyone smile" I continued

"Ok, but what happened?" Jay asked

"I don't really know, but one day in 9th grade he missed like two weeks of school. And when I say the school was dull in his absence, it was dull dull. Like the cafeteria was practically silent. But the day he came back, he wasn't the same anymore, he looked so down and broken and I don't think he spoke the rest of the year" I explained

"Do you know anything about why?"

"No, everyone who asked was faced with silence. So after a bit, they stopped. But now that I think about it, I had a group of friends back then and the day Sunoo-shi didn't attend, one of them just disappeared. A few weeks later when we attended his funeral, we found out he kinda died of something" I said my voice becoming more faint at the end

"Oh, sorry to hear that" both my friends said

"It's fine"

"We knew he was getting bullied for some reason, but we all thought it had stopped. Turns out it didn't, he was also dealing with some family problems and apparently some health ones too... I don't think Sunoo-shi has anything to do with it tho"

"If you were to compare his state right now to back then what would you say?"

"He seems to have gotten over what caused his silence back then but he still looks very broken and hurt. He looked a bit better at the end of 9th grade than when he came back from those two weeks but he seems worse in a way now" I tried explaining, but it was hard to put into words what I thought because there were no words that described my thoughts if that makes sense

"I don't think I understand but ok"

"Yeah me neither"

"Whatever let's go? We've been at the gate for 20 minutes"

"K"

(The next day)

I got to school a bit later than usual so I had to hurry, I went to my locker to grab some things. While I was walking the halls, I heard multiple people talk about Sunoo-shi's locker.

"Did you hear? The bot took the locker next to Sunghoonie" I hear someone say

"Who's 'the bot'?" a girl asked

"the one that doesn't talk and looks like he's on autopilot 24/7" the first girl replied

"Really? I saw Niki take his things from his usual locker tho"

"There's two sides dummy"

"1207? but that's Heeseung's locker"

"looks like he moved it"

The conversation continued but I stopped listening, hearing that girl call me "Sunghoonie" makes me want to hit her in the face. I took the books I needed for the first 2 periods and left the place. I got to my first class and saw Heeseung sitting there looking like he wanted to disappear.

"You look like you want to disappear right now" I said to him

"You don't attend the same class two years in a row do ya?" he replied, I laughed at that