Im sorry ..

Advice from Mom

( KayKay pov )

Im in the car driving home just letting the tears run freely down my cheeks. Damn im so pissed at her, i didnt mean to yell at her like i did but she pushed me to that limit. I blacked out and snapped. I wanted her to actually hear me out and see how bad she actually hurt me, how much pain i was feeling . All the hurt was just bottled up in my chest for a couple days and i needed to tell someone else besides my brother. I didnt even tell my mom because i knew all she would say was " Awe sweetie just give her another chance you know how much she loves you blah blah blah" Shit i dont want to be hearing that. Dont get me wrong , i love my mother to death but sometimes her advice.. no no i do not need it. As i pull into the driveway, and cut off the ignition i just sit there. I sit there and think. I think about when i first met Justyce , all of our good memories, even some bad times. I miss her already but im not even going to let my mind take me there. I get out my car and walk up the steps unlocking the front door. As i walk in the house i hear voices in the kitchen ... sounds like my mom . Probably invited a friend from work . Oh whatever im not going to interupt them.. as i walk up the steps i yell "Hey Mom !" "Hey sweetie come here for a second i want you to meet someone before you get locked away in your room" I hear her and whoever she's with laugh. I walk back downstairs and drag my feet to the kitchen. before i walk in i straighten myself up and put on a fake smile. "Hi Honey, I want you to meet my friend Dallas, Dallas this is my daughter Makaylah , my son Antwan i think is with his girlfriend, we'll have to catch him another time. I extend my hand to Dallas and he gives me a firm handshake and smiles "Pleased to meet you." I smile back returning the greeting. He seems nice enough, handsome , tall from how he sat upright, nice skin tone and pretty smile with glowing white teeth, Curly jet black hair. Lets go mommmm i see you. My mom isn't ugly at all , she's beautiful woman for her age. I wonder where she met him at. Well i didnt want to hold up there conversation so i told them goodnight and went up to my room. At least my mom is happy. So is Antwan, everybody is happy except for me .. Why ?

( Jay pov )
I had finally stopped crying about a couple minutes later after she left. Im still in my car just sitting here letting time go by . I dont have anything else better to do. Nothing went as planned. I dont have my girl back. She hates me. I really dont know what to do now. Our anniversary ... damn our anniversary is in a couple days. You know what, naw im not having that. I know exactly what im going to do . What i need to do right now is take my ass home first and hop in the shower so i can think about this plan. I gotta call Diamond and talk to her cause i know she pissed at me too. I need her on my side to make this plan work....

( Makaylah )
I get out the shower and walk into my room. I really really needed that . I sit on my bed still wrapped in my towel and just stare at the floor. I didnt know i was dazing off to space until someone knocked on my door. I nearly jumped out my skin . "Oh Snaps !! Who is it ?" The woman who brought you into this world ,she laughed. I giggled "sorry ma come in." She walked in my room and sat in my chair by my study desk. I get up and walk into my closet as i throw on some ball shorts and a tank top. i swear they are those most comfortable clothes to wear why you in the house... Whats up mom ? i say as i walk back out . "I should be the one asking you that question." My eyes widen and i look at her , Nothings up why would you think that ? "Do you think im crazy or stupid ? Did you forget im your mother , the one who raised you and your crazy head brother. I know when something's wrong with you sweetie. So just talk to me , i noticed when you walked in that kitchen something wasnt right, that fake smile you put on your face, you saying goodnight at only 6 , you never go to sleep this early. Whats wrong ? I take a deep breathe and sigh as i tell my mom everything that happened from the day she left, to seeing her at the mall, then about an hour ago at the park. A few tears slowly rolled down my cheeks as the hurt comes back. My mom wipes them away and looks at me sympathetically. "Listen Makaylah , ever since you and Justyce started talking i knew she was the one for you. Over the years i've been paying attention to your relationship with her and she makes you so happy and love seeing you that way. The same for your brother , him and the girl he's been with , they're doing just fine. Have a couple slip ups here and there but that doesnt break them apart. They learn to forgive and forget. But in this case.. it seems to me as if you dont want to forgive. I know for damn sure im going to have to talk to Justyce for hurting you like this. My advice to you right now is to take her back ." I look up at my mom like she done lost her damn marbles. "I dont know who you looking at like that child. We both share a laugh. But mom how can i take her back when she hurt me like this? "Listen to what i said, you know you cant live without that girl and neither can she. You both have a bond with eachother that nobody should be able to break. Im not saying to go running back into her arms but when the time is right take her back. I want you two to build your future together. Start a family , your seniors , about to go out to the same college. It would be pretty awkward being on the same campus with someone you just got out of a relationship with. She's different Makaylah, I like her more than your last boyfriend. Thought i'd never tell you that but its true. She gives you so much more, your happy, not being held back from the things that you wanna accomplish with her. So take my words and think about it. I smile and giver her a big hug . Thankyou so much mom . She kissed my cheek "No problem sweetie, now dont be hiding anything from me now" I laughed , Okay Okay i wont . "Alright now, she said as she walked out my room. I sighed , I love my mom so much . I laid back on my bed and started thinking back to what my mom said . "Take her back." Tuh , ughh i just need time . Time Time Time. I plug my phone up to my speaker and zone out to PartyNextDoor. Im singing along with him when my phone starts ringing. Ughhhh really !!! I get up to go answer it. Whose number is this ?
M~ Hello ..?
??~ GIRL WHERE WERE YOU, Ive been calling you and texting your phone.
M~ Diamond ? ..I was in the shower , whose number is this ?
D~ ohhh im sorry got me all panicking.. but this the house number i cant find my charger and my phone checked on me .
M~ BooHooo, its probably in the car go check.
D~ ooooh you right hold on ...
M~ oookayy....
( 1 minute later )
D~ your sooo smart, it was right in the armrest, anywhore. Are you okay babygirl, how you feeling .
M~ Child im okay (tells her about the park and my moms advice).
D~ Yesss mommm ! Girl when was you gonna tell me this ??
M~ Shut up with yah hype ass, i was gonna call you tomorrow and tell you to come over so we can talk about what i should do.
D~ oop no need to curse im sensitive,
M~ lol girl byeee
D~ loll sike naw , but okay we can do that just text me whenever you wake up and let me know what time to slide through, i aint go a damn thing to do.
M~ lol mhm okay, but what about Ricardo ?
D~remember i told you he's away for football camp ?
M~ oooohhh yea , awwe
D~ik ik i miss my baby !
M~ i feel you , but listen let me go to sleep im tired with a headache from all this thinking.
D~ ard girly, nightt
M~ night night .. and with that I hung up and let my music play low as i got under the covers and went to sleep.