Im sorry ..

breakfast w grandmom

( Sugg pov )

After the ceremony was over and everyone congratulated all the departing seniors me and everyone else met outside. I wont lie no one left out the building with not a dry eye. Not even me , especially since i was not expecting that from Jay.

It was me , Jay, Chaz, Brandi, DiDi and Ricardo standing off to the side talking amongst ourselves. Me on the other hand was watching everyone with their families taking pictures holding their caps with diplomas, taking pictures , etc. I didnt realize i was smiling until Jay tapped me asking if i was alright.

I turned to her and smiled.

Sugg ~ Yea babe im fine , its just crazy how fast we all grew up you know. Now we're all about to be off to college as adults.

Jay ~ I know babygirl, at least you wont be alone, you still gonna have me and the gang lol.

Sugg ~ I could never live without you guys , basically like family ... especially you my big headed baby .

Jay ~ Omg stop coming for my head babe

Sugg ~ Loll okay im sorry mugga , * kisses her cheek *

Chaz ~ So whats the moves tonight yall ?

DiDi ~ I heard that Michele was throwing a lil grad kick back later on tonight .. i say slide ?

Everyone looks around at eachother and agrees.

Sugg ~ Say no more .. What yall about to do now ? Family time right ?

Brandi ~ Yeap yeap .. link up later ?

Jay ~ Sounds good to me

Sugg ~ Welllll, okaay i guess we"ll see eachother later.

Everyone smiled and came together for a group hug. We parted then made our way to our families. Even Jay. We haven't heard much about her family but she has family lol. She just lives by herself , not like she got kicked out or anything she just wanted to be on her own and do her own thing, of course they supported her with everything that she did, especially her being a lesbian. Her parents and other family members just lived in a different part of the city, really meant a lot to her that they showed up.

I watched everyone separate towards their families as i walked over to my mom brother and grandmother. They welcomed me with warm smiles and flowers and lots of congratulations. We made our way back to the car going to our favorite diner.

I haven't been to this place since the first time we moved up here, my grandmother took me and my brother after we had just finished moving the rest of our things into the house. It wasn't really big or anything, but that didn't matter because their food was really good.  I had brought Jay here one time, it was like our first date and she didn't know where to take me so i helped her with some ideas and settled on this place. She loves it just as much as i do , she comes here more often than i can though.

Once we arrived we were seated we already knew what we wanted so we started on small conversations.

My grandmom had asked me was i ready for college.

Sugg ~ To be honest , i am but then again i'm not ready. I mean Rider Univ, is all the way in New jersey ! Across the dang world grandmom, its not like i can just come home after my classes. I will actually have to live down there.

Mom ~ But NJ is really close to philadelphia remember , we still have a lot of family there so you can travel back and forth there i you wanted if its not too far from campus.

Sugg ~ Sure mom  but its still not the same as actually being home.

Ant ~ What about me, like what am i supposed to do while you're gone.

Sugg ~ You can stay out my room and not touch a thing :)

we all laughed

Ant ~ No but seriously all jokes aside ima really miss your annoying self around ,

Sugg ~ All baby brotherrrr im going to miss you more, it's not like i wont be down for holidays and im just a facetime call away.

Ant ~ It'll never compare to actually having you here though

Sugg ~ ik ik dont keep reminding me

GM ~ I understand you baby, it was hard for me moving and going to college, but i got through it as you can see of course

Sugg ~ you made it seem so easy though ...

GM ~ But it wasn't love, so much hard work and the dedication i put into all counts as well.

The waiter brought over our waters and then took our orders.

Sugg ~ Im going to need a lot of luck out there gram.

Gm ~ Just believe in yourself babygirl, you come from a smart family, you've made it this far so keep going.

Mom ~ At least you wont be alone, you still have Justyce and your other close friends.

*smiles* Sugg ~ I know mommy, im so happy they are all going and we are still as close as when we first met.

Mom ~ I sure am glad you guys are still close, i really like those kids.

Ant ~ yea they chill as hell

* sighs * Sugg ~ At least now i can relax before i have to go and start getting ready.

~    the waiter had brung us our food and we started to eat.

While we were eating gmom had asked Ant about school and then his girlfriend.

GM ~ So ant .... i know you're in a relationship

Ant ~ yeaa almost a year

GM ~ mhmmm , so i know you've been having sex.

Ant almost choked on his pancakes, i was in tears. It's so awkward when your grandparents talk to you about sex.

Ant ~ uh uh .. yea grandmom we have had sex

GM ~ mhm , and have you used protection...

Ant ~ Well yeaa, im too young for a baby right now , the both of us.

GM ~ Good , i mean if she wound up pregnant, you're gonna have to step up to the plate you know that right.

Ant ~ Yea yeaa, we're not even on the kids thought right now, she said kids after we both graduate college. How does that sound gmom, gonna be a great grandmom to our babies.

 Gm ~ OH NO , do not.. make me feel old. Gonna have to call me GeGe by that point okay.

We all laughed at her

We continued to share laughs and eat. Talking about old times, before we moved, when we moved out here how things were so different to now how things changed so much. I forgot about a lot of the topics that came up. It's crazy how much your grandmom can remember.

I damn sure missed my grandmom...