The choices we make

Chapter 16 •Past and Moving on•

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🔻TRIGGER WARNING🔻
-Consent speech - Consent topics
-Alcohol reference
-Cuss words
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Trophy's POV
I move lightly and everything hurts.
I can't see, i seem to have some bandages over my face.
I feel the sheets on me, the cotton, the soft and warm feeling of a bed.
I take a deep breath, as I remember that the others are here, they came for us, for me.
I flinch a bit when i hear a door open.
"Ah- W-who's there ?"
I say as I move a bit.
"Its me...Hum...Knife."
"Oh, okay..."
"May I enter ?"
"Oh yeah uh- Sure."
I hear the door closing and some footsteps coming towards me.
"How are you feeling ?"
I sigh.
"What can I say ? Good, I guess..."
"Yeah...TestTube really did a good job on you, I mean...It sounds weird when I say it that way but-"
"Yeah, I understand,  don't worry."
I hear him sigh.
"I know you've been through a lot, but I had to see you, to talk...I'm sorry, really."
"Knife I-"
"No. I'm serious, if i had just trusted you instead of letting my temper, create this dumb outburst, things wouldn't have happened ! But I had to...Ruin everything, like always..."
I stay silent.
"Don't feel bad for me, i'm not the victim, you are, at all point, this whole situation is fucked up ! And i made it worst !"
He says with an harsh tone.
"Knife...Not everything is your fault-"
"If I had stayed with you that day, you wouldn't have been kidnapped in the forest, I- I would have been there ! To help you ! I-"
"But you didn't ! I had so much pride that i decided to go alone !" 
I say loudly, cutting him in his speech.
"What do you mean ?"
"Don't you see ? Its my fault ! I wanted to go alone ! I wanted to prove everyone I was not a coward, afraid for nothing !"
I say in a firm tone.
I then breath slightly heavily.
"I did this to myself ! And I got you hurt too ! How worst can I ever be ?!"
I say as i make lots of gestures.
I feel him grab one of my hand.
"Trophy, Trophy, calm down."
I breath heavily, then stop moving and take deep breath.
"You getting kidnapped is not your fault, Cobs is just a crazy fucker and i'll turn him into pop-corn myself, and I bet the others would gladly help me!"
I chuckle a bit.
"Plus it was our choice to go and help you, you are not responsable for that either."
Knife says to me.
We both stay silent for a moment, our breathing are the only thing heard in the room.
I then let go of his hand.
"Knife, I'm not as innoncent as you think I am..."
I say as i turn my head away.
"Why wouldn't you be ?"
"The night...The night we were together and we...Well...Were kissing and stuff...I took advantage of you."
"Wait- What ? No you didn't ?"
"I did ! When you came to me, you were so...Nice and it had been so long since anyone was...This nice, physicaly to me, I- I didn't stop you...Even when deep down,I knew that my feelings for you weren't reciprocal."
The room get silent again for a few minutes.
"Oh...I see."
"I'm sorry ! I-"
"No, don't be...That night I didn't even ask you before even kissing you...You had drank alcohol...Oh God...I really didn't think straight about all this..."
I stay silent and think.
"Well...Its not that bad, I mean..."
"You're kidding ? I didn't even asked you that night, I just did what i wanted, I thought it would have been romantic...Like in the movies...Raaaah!! I'm so stupid!"
I hear him say, in a rough tone, anger can be felt, anger against himself.
"But I- I-"
I sigh, I feel a conflict in me...
"You're right, but I don't want to be angry at you for that."
"Well...I want you to know that what I did was wrong, and that it will never happen again."
He says as i feel him grab my hands.
"But I don't matter know, h-how...How are you feeling, about this, I'd understand if you are mad, really, don't be afraid-"
"I...I'm gonna need some time..."
"Of course!"
He says as he let go of my hands gently.
"All the time you need, even if its like...50 years, I'm totally okay with this, even if you need even more!"
"Knife...I don't...Hâte you that much...Its just...What you did was wrong...But it was not worst than what Cobs did o-"
"What ?"
"I-"
"This fucker dared to touch you, to hurt you?"
"Its- Well-"
"I'll kill him right now."
"Knife please! Ow!-"
I say as i move and feel my metal pieces on my chest, like broken glass, but its sudden and short.
"Easy! Don't move like that, you need to rest."
He says while grabbing my hands.
I wince and whine a bit.
"Here, breath slowly, deep breath."
I sigh and try to relax my body.
"I'll let you time, to think, and rest most importantly...Okay ?"
"Okay..."
I feel him let go of my hand slowly, and move away from the bed.
"If you need anything, we are all here, okay ?"
"Yeah..."
I hear the door closes.