Poetry 001

Overthinking

My thoughts intertwine.

And I'm trying to scream,

I'm crying out,

But they get too loud.

As if I'm covered by a crowd,

Of emotions and thoughts,

That I'm not very proud,

Of thinking.

I space out,

I feel so lost,

I break, and I fall.

I tear myself down,

And yes I know the cost,

Of what happens,

When I'm slacking,

But I can't stop thinking.

My mind is a sea of never ending things,

If only I could stop this madness,

And fly away like an angel with strong wings.

But this is reality,

And there are fatalities,

Of running away,

Of trying to escape,

And getting caught in another place.

What if this?

What if that?

When did he?

Where did she?

The questions grow and grow,

And my tears flow and flow,

To the point where I can't breathe.

And I'm reaching out for someone to help.

I'm not perfect I know,

I'm a bad person I know.

I have flaws as well,

If you couldn't already tell.

I'm not perfect but I try to be,

I try so hard but it's not working for me.

I lose and wonder why it's so easy for others,

And how my bad thoughts can be smothered.

My dreams and thoughts,

They feel so real. But are they actually like this?

Am I supposed to be in this forever confused bliss?

Did I hurt someone so bad to deserve this life crisis?

I wonder how to fix it,

Without tearing myself bit by bit.

But theres a sound going tick tick,

Then I realize I'm running out of time.

Endless nights of thinking.

Of crying and shouting for it to end,

This is not how I want to spend,

My life.

I want to be calm,

I want to be happy,

But why do I always feel so crappy?

CAN EVERYTHING STOP FOR JUST A SECOND?!

End.