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AN- gonna start changing my style a bit, its gonna annoy me at first but its for flexability <33 also i recently got diagnosed with chronophobia so that's affected my uploads, im starting medication so that will be hopefully better! sorry for the wait <33

Taehyun's POV

I bet Soobin's over the moon that Iseul and Jungmin are together, his plan is piecing together.. I'm happy for him but where am I in this? Sure, I get to spend time with him, see him, but I feel let down. I feel used, I feel like a push to Soobin's victory. He said his aim is for fanbases to not make us seem like enemies, rather competitors. What does all of this do to help? What is your real aim Soobin..? I'm hurting for you.

Soobin's POV

I feel like I'm losing myself in all of this, what am I getting out of this? Let's remind yourself Soobin, your purpose is to put down comparing, not to mess about with people. My brain --feeling heavy from the previous thoughts-- lightens as a brilliant and harmless, helpful idea comes to mind. It's just me and Iseul in her office. The 4 walls are enchanted with orange light, every now and then dimming like a plane in its landing process. The air is quite warm, comforting warm, swiliring around the room and inbetween my fingers that I'm fiddling with. Suddenly, Iseul's typing stops as she tilts her glasses so they fall onto her nose tip. She says, "You look happy, what's up?" I have no clue how she got this inferrence as nothing I can feel with connotations to happiness lies on my face. She continues along with a chuckle to my dumb actions, "It doesn't show on your mouth don't worry, it's all in your behaviour and eyes. They are glistening." It's my turn for a laugh but all I can do is scoff, leaning my head back onto the wall, wanting to reveal the idea. "I just had an amazing idea, you won't like it but if it shows happiness in my eyes then, it's worth it, right?" The smile does fade into my lips, it's full of hope as I can feel her eyes bore through me. "I'll maybe consider it, I know your ideas." She scoffs before spinning her chair to face me, I'm still leaning my head back because I can't stand rejection in my eyes. "I want to collab with... Kang. Make a song and perform it together." She begins to choke up, a symptom of an upcoming no. "Wait, wait, it has an explaination!" I rapidly add in before she could reject the offer, but before I can carry on, she travels on her chair towards me --who's sitting on a bean bag-- she takes my hands into hers, this shocks me because she's never been this affectionate towards my 'stupid' ideas. "Okay, but Soobin, tell me why?" A very loud gasp flows out automatically putting my legs in spring mode, pushing me back onto the bean bag in pure shock. I am on the verge just from the simple, 'okay' now I have to explain?! Jungmin has changed her too much. "I don't want to be compared anymore..I'm sick of my supposed hatred towards Kang being used to advertise ourselves." A sigh slips out, after explaining this too many times. "And, don't say it's 'apart of the idol life, it passes' cause I know this won't pass. Just, don't lie anymore. What's the real reason to seperate me from my 'enemy'?" Unintended waves of salt brim up to my waterline, they squirm in desperation to be released into the air and Iseul can clearly see this. She replies, leaving my hands, "I seperated you because I saw this coming. I know there's another reason behind this.. whole plan of yours. Trying to get me together with Jungmin, who I already was with. I see your motive thanks to your eyes." This was way too much to handle, my head tilts to a side fromm the weight of information, what does she mean? "What do you mean?" The tears only squirm hastily, what she says next forces the gate to open.

"You love him."

Is that what's twisting me up? Pushing me off my main goal. "You want to stop the comparing so you can get closer to him, right?" She reveals my buried feelings, which suddenly raise up, replaying memories of the past. When we were in the fields, school, each other's houses. It was all bittersweet, and still is. "I was planning to rid of our bond after I got closer and established our friendship." Isuel scoffs, "You were planning on letting him go? How bitter of you Soobin. He's probably aching for you. How did you even get these feelings?" Her words hit harder than the box of tissues she chucks right at me, giggling. She dug so deep into my conscience, it caught me off guard that I answered the question effortlessly. "He is so goddamn buff, those muscles have handsome faces of their own. His smile, oh my god! It's so cute and perfect! He looks like a handome zombie when he wakes up. His eyes are so big I feel intimidated whenever he pins me against a wa-" Iseul interrupts, "OKAY OKAY, all you have to do now is tell him ALL of this!" She smiles widely spinning back to her desk and typing, as she does so, I shake my head vigourously in disagreement. "Okay then, after this collaboration. Oh and also from now on, me and Jungmin will be trying to get rid of these comparing pieces of shits with statements. You focus on this song and your loverboy." My life isn't real what the fuck happened.

"OI KANG TAEHYUNNN GET OUT OF YOUR ROOM!!" My lungs personally give their last message before a long breather. He suddenly peacefully opens the door, revealing a tired male with electrified-looking honey blonde hair. He replies with a groan. "You're handome even with messy hair." My feelings manage to slip out of my loose lips, making Taehyun hum in question as I just break the news to him at.. 2 AM. "Before I send you to sleep, we are working on a song together and will perform it. Oh and, our managers are finally putting statements out to stop the comparing." I speedrun my speech before pushing Kang back into his room, little did I know he had snook a hand onto me, making me ALSO fall into his dark room. We're on the floor, he's sat up, head on the bed leg, legs out however, my arms attempting to hold myself up in line with his abdomen, the rest of myself is crouched over him. This bitch is half asleep. Abruptly he says, I'm hurting for you, I want us to be real." There's a big chance it's not about me, yet I feel hopeful maybe it is. And in that case, I'm sorry Taehyun so I'm going to make this right. I just hope you're talking about me.

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