your love scares me

bitch out

im running and i see alex run past maya and anna saying somehting i try to pay attention to running but i cant seem to get out of my thoughts 

'god is he good looking when he runs'

"shut up" i mumble under my breath 

al:huh

st:when did you get here 

al:since mrs asshole told us to go to the bleachers. he whispers 

MRS: hey im talking 

20minuets later 

MRS: blondie your up. she says talking to me but anna gets up 

MRS; no anna stella is kicking 

an:what you said blondie 

mrs:stellas blond 

ST;okay im going 

'i get up to the ball and alex throws it and i accdently hit him with the ball.

mrs: take your victem to the nurses office 

st:cmon alex

al:alright stells

st:its stella 

AT THE NURSES OFFICE

st:did you hear maya and anna are gonna bitch brandt and yall out

al: i dont care 

 st:okay 

AN: authors note so stellas dad is brandts dad so their half siblings ik i didnt mention this but yeah

i get pulled into this stuff all the time and cant leave bcs brandt thinks its funny so while mayas doing her little midget armadillo or whatever it is i am talking to becca and then i hear my name so i start paying attention to what their saying "and thats why you have an aardvark" huh that makes no sense "AND THATS WHY YOU AND THAT SLUTS DAD DIED" maya yells at brandt i see tears welling up in his eyes. but i just freeze usally i would start crying or yelling but tears just grow in my eyes as i stand there, maya and anna have hated me since the litteral day they met me and have been calling me a slut since this summer and i know they like brandt and alex but why say that "what the fawk" alex says it sounds like hes mad but idk why i mean i know why but why. i get pulled out of thought by anna saying somthing so i walk over to my brother and hug him he doesnt hug me back at first but he ends up hugging me back our moms are friends after our dad died so we go to his house and spend the night watching movies with alex and dustin.

me and alex end up in the kitchen alone getting snacks and drinks

al:im so sorry they said that stella 

st:yeah right you probably just wanna make fun of me more for crying 

al:no i truly am sorry about that idek why they would do that 

st:stop just stop

al:being nice 

st: you only care bcs they said that to brandt 

al:stells

st:its stella 

he walks away mad i know he prob ment it but we hate eachother almost every summer leading up to 6th we dated for atleast a week but he started dating heather and we just stopped trying to tolarate eachother and we havent had a conversation where he doesnt say some insulting thing and we yell at eachother since then so him caring was a very very rare ocurence the pool party was tmr so i bike home and go to sleep at like 3:30am goodnight world

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