My Little Secret (eng)

The night we met

I was just chilling in my room when my mother laura barced in and yelled at me: "MEA LUCIA NELSON WHY DID THE SCHOOL CALL ME TELLING ME YOU HAVE BEEN FLIRTING WITH A GIRL!!??" She sounded like she was ready to kill me, i looked at her with kind of frustration in my eyes "DIDNT I TELL YOU ITS. JUST. A. PHASE!" She continued, "mom i didnt do a shit why do you have to be so narrow minded!" *i shout and walk out of my room, i sighed its friday night so i guess i could just go out for long long walk "dont you dare walk out of that door young lady!" Mom shouts at me before i shut the door closed and walk outside.
After while of walking i come up to this big field and sit on the ground there is fireflys everywhere and it just makes the wiew amazing. I lay down and lose my track on time until suddenly i hear foot steps very near but when i sit up for my suprise i see antonia, my old friend and last year bully.
"Hi?" I ask with quiet voice bit confused
"Oh hi. I didnt think here would be anyone this time of night" she says with this angelic voice, its hard to not fall for her, she is wearing her wavy ginger hair up and has blue hoodie and black jeans on. She walks up to me and sits next to me. "I didnt think i would see you but.. i guess i just wanted to.. apolizise.." she mumbles nervously, "about what?" I question.
"Everything i did since i became popular and left you alone, after.. you.." she struggles to finish the sentence but i know she what she means. When we were on thirt grade i kissed her, thats when i realised im lesbian but i also realised that not many others are, after i kissed antonia she joned to popular kids and they all made my life a living hell.
"Yeah.." i whisper to her not able to make eye contact so i just stare at the ground full of little grass "the sky is pretty tho" antonia suddenly says after akward silence and looks at me bit red "it is.." i answer and look back to her, she has always been better solializing, i guess thats why she got popural and i became freak.
"So umm.. yeah i just i uhh.." antonia turns forward me again trying to cather uo her words but i notice her just staring at my lips. I look at her bright eyes with love. "Sorry for kissing you but.. would you mind.. if.. i did it again?" I asked slowly as we kept staring at each other "nu uhh" antonia says and kisses me and "pushes"to lay on ground and we keep kissing until we get eye contact and she jumps up and says quietly "sorry, didnt meant to, dont tell, anyone." She quickly said and just walked away i was left alone to the field again just trees humming on wind. I felt, weird.