The Sweet Escape

My forever soulmate

Tom was dead asleep and I was just, awake. I couldn't sleep, I could only think about the way it drove Tom crazy being away from me, we slept in the guest room since Tom's room wasn't... in shape.

He's apologized twice every 30 minutes since the incident this morning, it was kinda cute. I look over at him and his face was calm, his skin soft like a rose petal, his lashes perfectly curled.

I dug my face deeper into his chest, taking in his warmth. I could feel his heartbeat, i placed my hand on his heart, but the beat was no longer there. I looked up at him and it wasn't him.

It was.. Arin, my ex that died the year before. Tears ran down my face, I sat up shaking the body laying before me. "Please baby don't leave me, please baby come back to me, I love you too much to let you go, baby please"

I got on my knees, banging on his chest for a little bit of hope in feeling his heart beat one last time. I banged and banged but I immediately stopped when I heard his voice, "Gwen, Gwen baby I'm right here, baby I'm right here look at me, baby right here."

His voice came from every where, "WHERE ARIN, WHERE, SHOW ME WHERE ,COME TO ME PLEASE , BABY I NEED YOU" I called out but he would tell me where he would just tell me to look.

I began to scream until the voices became real, "baby, calm down, it's alright baby, I'm right here, just come back to me!" I reached my hand out but as I did I woke up shooting up from my nightmare. "There we go baby, everything's okay, you're ok, I got you."

He brought me close, my breath heavy, my heart beating fast. Tears were already strolling down my face, "what happened?!" I saw the worry in his eyes but I couldn't tell him about Arin, he was the love of my life, my forever soulmate. He would kill me if he knew there was someone before him. "I just had a nightmare." He rolled his eyes and got up, pushing me off of him, "if you don't want to tell me just say that!" I knew not telling him would break him, but if I did, that would break him too. So either way he's gonna be mad so I might as well tell him now so he doesn't beat it out of me later. "Ok ok sit!"

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"HAPPY BIRTHDAY" I smiled, he always remembered my birthday, even when we were kids. "Thank you babe, but I told you I just wanted to be chill this year!" He smiled and gave me a 'get ready for this' kinda look. " oh gosh, what did you do"

His smile slightly grew bigger, "you said you didn't want anything big, so I went small." I laughed uncontrollably, "what.." he whispered, I looked at him, laughing even harder, "did you cut your dick off?!" I said with teary eyes.

He laughed with me, "no dumb ass, we're gonna go somewhere." My laugh faded a little, "ok where?" He pulled out a blindfold and handed it to me, "that's for me to know, and for you to find out" i scoffed and put the blindfold on.

We drive for about 20 minutes, I tried guessing where we were going but he wouldn't budge. I gave up after a while.

We came to a stop and he quickly got out and opened the door for me, I held my hand out and he held it, helping me up. "You are such a gentle man" we walked for a little, just to to side walk, " ok take it off!" i took a deep breath and removed the blindfold.

Candles lit up a pathway leading up the hill, " Arin, baby this is beautiful, how long did this take you?" i fluttered my eyes at the rose petaled pathway, "don't worry about that, just come on!" He grabbed my hand and began to walk, mesmerized by the scene in front of me i didn't even realized we began walking.

We finally made it up the hill, it took us like 5 minutes because i kept stopping to pick up the different colored rose petals, i never knew there were so many colored roses. Before we got there i could see a checkered blanket on the grass with a picnic basket on top. We sat down and arin began to pull stuff out of the basket, it was all my favorite fruits, foods, and snacks. Gosh i love him so much, if this is what it's gonna be like forever, then i want to spend the rest of my life with him.

We ate and talked, all i could do was stare at his lips, they looked so full, so wet, so kissable. "Are you even listening, or are you just staring at my lips?" I let out a little mhm, not letting my eyes pull away from his lips. I just couldn't, his lips were like magnets, for a second i felt mine become metal, i jumped on him, cutting off whatever he was saying.

I place my lips on his and wrapped my arms around his neck. He brought me closer and deepened the kiss, pushing his tongue on mine. It felt like heaven on earth, he was always so gentle and caring, and i loved him for that. he was my soulmate and i dont know what i would ever do without him.

the next day I woke up happy, that's never happened before, i'm always grumpy in the mornings. i felt next to me and he was gone, i fluttered my eyes open to look around the room, all of his stuff was still here.

I stood up and looked around, i saw the light on in the bathroom so i guessed he was in there, "arin, baby are you in he- BABY ARE YOU OK, BABY PLEASE GET UP, YOU ARE OK JUST GET UP!" I tried pulling his body up, but i was to weak. Tears filled my eyes and i began to choke on my words. " BABY PLEASE!" I let out a bloodcurdling scream as the love of my life laid lifeless on my lap.

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Tears formed in my eyes, "after that my mom entered the bathroom and called 9-1-1, but they were to late, he was already dead before i found him. Once i lost him, i knew i could never love the same. I never counted him as an ex or anything because he was my soulmate and I will never forget him and what he did for me. But i don't think i could ever forgive him for killing himself, i've never had a nightmare about him though, everytime he would appear in my dreams, he would always tell me how much he loved me but this was very different."

Tom just stared at me, he didn't even say a word, " I knew you wouldn't understand, you've never loved anyone but yourself." His eyes widened and filled with tears, " I lost the one person that ever loved me, how could you.. no, how DARE you sit here carelessly?!" He looked down at his hands.

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Tom's POV-

I didn't know what to say, she looked so heart broken and i didn't think she needed my pitty. She began to yell at me, and that was all it took, i started to cry, she started to shame me for being careless, and heartless. She didn't understand how i felt, how could she, she told me what happened to her years ago, and I didn't say a word.

"gwen im sorry, i just don't know what to say, words can't describe how mad it makes me to know you went through something like that." She looked embarrassed, "i didn't think you needed my pity." i said low to myself. "You're right, i don't want your pity, but i wish that you could act like you care."

I met her sad gaze "gwen if i didn't care i wouldn't have fucking asked, i care for you and for you not to see that is just disappointing, i would die for you, i would kill for you. Whatever it took to keep you safe i would do. Why are you the only one who doesn't see it!" I watched her eyes open and fill up with anger.

" I don't want any of that tom , fuck. Why cant you see that i just want the real you, not the stone cold person you pretend to be." Before i could open my mouth and apologize, she walked out of the door. "FUCK!" i grabbed the glass from the counter and threw it to the other side of the room.

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