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➝Top Jimin ➝Bottom Jungkook
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Slaves is what we are to our feelings and emotions
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Everyone has always suggested that writing down your thoughts and feelings makes you feel much more collected, more sure about your feelings and helps you sort out what's going on inside you. Jungkook absolutely did not understand it until now he sat here on the black couch of Yoongi's small apartment, eyes fixed on the small notepad opened In Front of him with a pen lying idle on it. Jungkook's eyes stared in space while his mind was lost in thoughts, it was as if he was chasing around his mind to collect his thoughts and feelings and then write it down somehow without giving up this time.
Yoongi Hyung has given him a lecture about this and he doesn't want his older brother to be any more concerned about his condition. In general, Yoongi suggested that he write down his feelings, emotions, and thoughts. Doesn't matter if it turns out to be a poem, song, paragraph, or anything. Just write the hell away.
'let yourself bleed on paper so that you won't hurt others by bleeding on them from the wound they didn't give you in the first place'
Yoongi's words echo in Jungkook's mind, he sighed and laid back against the back of the couch, groaning while rubbing his face in frustration, finding it hard to actually start writing.
The main question is, what is there to write?
Wouldn't it be absurd of him, childish of him to write down the feelings he had been experiencing lately due to certain someone. What difference would it make by writing those feelings down beside making him feel less burdened? He can't seem to be convinced enough to write it. But he really didn't want to see the disappointment in Yoongi's eyes when he would return home to see Jungkook lying on the couch, staring at the ceiling with blank eyes, dried tear tracks on his cheeks.
It isn't any less than a dilemma for Jungkook to not know whether he should even be feeling this way or not. It's not possible in Jungkook's hand to be able to control his feelings yet at the same time it is in his hands. He can hopefully work on his emotions and control them but it's not as easy as it's said.
Change is a must in life, it's something we all learn with time, we cannot stop things from changing cuz they are bound to change. It's us who need to learn how to adapt ourselves with the changes. Our life is a set of phases, just like the moon we have to go through phases to achieve our true selves.
But Jungkook here finds it hard to accept the changes. To him, he is not ready to face the challenges that might be waiting for him. It's not like he is not powerful enough, rather it's the fear of losing his true self is what stops him from facing the harsh realities. He fears the judgmental views of people towards him, he fears the neglect that may follow with the changes, the betrayal, the bond breakage with his dear ones. He fears he has to let go of the things that used to be the building blocks of what he is today.
