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Eleanor had promised Ricky that she would try to be more honest with him, and that they would still talk, as friends.
Ricky told her he'd rather have her in his life as a friend then not at all, and the girl agreed with that.
She had spend the last of the night helping him learn the dance, and then went with him to show Carlos
She left a little while after though, feeling the need to take sometime for ger self which is how she felt her self infront of the piano.
She had written a song last night. Most of it is improv, but yet she can relate to it some how.
She places her fingers on the key and starts playing the melody she had xome up with.
Usually never cry at all
I would say I'm pretty tough.
It is the truth, she always bottles up her emotions, and would never cry, especially not over boys.
But it's been a couple weeks now
And I still feel stuck in my lungs
And usually I go out on nights
And not think of you once
But if they start playin' that song
I can't help but to think about us, oh
It might have not been a couple weeks, more like a couple days but yet she infact feels stuck in her lungs.
Really thought I'd be done with the hardest part
When I pulled myself out of your arms
Wish I knew that was only the start
She thought that that would be the teh hardest part, having to pull away from him. But then seeing him everyday was so many times worse.
And now I'm fallin' apart 'cause
Last night for the very first time
You didn't even try to call
Oh, I won't lie, I thought I might die
I couldn't even sleep at all
She has barely slept over the last few days. Normally she would fall asleep with either Ricky next to her or him on facetime. But that obviously stopped.
And maybe I'll get used to it (ah, ah)
But right now I just feel like shit (ah, ah)
Oh, oh
She just has to get used to not being able to kiss him. That they are just friends for now. Easier said then done.
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