Beautiful bastard and a girl

Chapter 23

I checked the time again

7.35 am ...

This is the zillionth time I'm pretending to drink my water and try to look like I'm occupied rather than waiting to catch a glimpse of her

How did I end up like this?

Samanun Anantrakul, sitting and waiting to steal a glance of some random insignificant girl who I know nothing about, other than her name...

I wish I was better at this... because honestly, it felt good

It went from tragic to magic without us realizing...

Even though the magic only lasted for a few minutes, it was strong enough to break me... I feel so lost

And as always, I did what I do the best.. destroy it

Why do I complicate and mess up everything in my life?

It's rare moments like these that make me curse my INTJ ass

I... I want you Mon... I want you for some weird reason that I can't even comprehend

And I'm sorry for that

I'm sorry that I don't know how to tell you the truth, Mon

My heart wants to but my mind knows that it's not an option for me

Yesterday's incident made me sure of that

Ah no... Wait... not that beach incident

It's this other incident that happened after when my Dad...

"Khun Sam what happened to your eye?"

Oh my heart just shrank

I averted my gaze to the Angel that's standing right in front of me

Yes, this weird little girl somehow managed to be an Angel in my eyes

"Mon"

My breathy voice was all shaky in happiness when seeing her

I thought that she would slap me hard and tell me to fuck off... that's what I was expecting anyway

But no... she was... Concerned about me

I silently thanked my Dad for giving me the proof... aka my bruises and my purple eye

I missed this kind of closure for a long time that right now, her innocent question brought a tear to my eyes

"What happened to your eye Khun Sam?"

Her lifeless eyes are burning my soul

"I'm sorry Mon, I'm so sorry for what happened that day"

Mon looked away while biting her lip, it's like she forgot how rude I was for a second when she saw me injured

"Mon I'm so sorry. Please look at me Mon. Please don't ignore me"

She looked at me slowly and asked me in a trembling tone

"Why are you doing this Khun Sam?"

I held my head in frustration

"I don't know Mon. I really don't know. Please trust me Mon, I don't mean to harm you. I'm not a bad person, I'm just helpless"

I blurted out everything I could

"What do you mean helpless?"

She is confused

I took a deep sigh

"Will you meet me tonight?"

Mon scoffed

"Are you serious Khun Sam? After all that happened, you still ask me to come? You're just never going to learn do you? Please stay away from me"