Silently In Love (Soundwave X Mech!reader)

10 | Guilt

I got my ass back babagrill 🦭🦭

Summary: all the way back when the war hadn't started yet, you and Ratchet were having a conversation. Then back to the present.
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Hundred of Vorn ago...

"Soundblaster?"
"Yeah!!! He is so cool- just- why is he so attractive!?!?!?" You probably lost control with your talking, you had been talking non-stop about Soundblaster to your trusted Amica, Ratchet. Since the day you met him at the park, you had completely gone crazy.

"Look like... You have a new obsession... Last time was flying and now this... Gladiator."
"He also can fly, right?" You don't know much about him, yes. Your new obsession makes you go to the gladiator ring just to see him, maybe also collecting posters about him.

"Listen kid, are you even attracted to femme?" No, and yes but no.
"I- I am! When we were in an academy I got attracted to this femme student. So you already know it!"
"You flirted with Orion once and a random mech you found attractive but never flirted with a femme?" Suddenly you keep quiet, dawg you forgot about that. Are you in denial?

"Ahaha... Mm I don't flirt that many mech you know."
"You-"
"OK OK! Fine... But I'm still not attracted to mech!" Let's not talk about how you found Soundblaster, attractive. You are unemployed, you stay with Ratchet and you have a small amount of shanix left.

As time passes by you decide to work with Ratchet at the dead end, fragging finally I guess.
"Your turn to pay."
"Why you gotta do this to me... RATCHET!!!!!"

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Present time

You're on your scout mission, Ratchet was in front of you. How much guilt you felt after being forced to join the deception and the amount of time you had to fight your trusted Amica is hurt.
"I don't wanna shoot you..." You lower your sniper.
"You're probably gonna get a punishment or scold for not doing that, (Y/D)."
"I... Know."

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"Have you confessed yet?" Huh?
"E-excuse me?"
"You haven't? It's probably the best if you do it, kid." You do know that he has a lover, a high-rank deception mech who left the deception for him. Currently they are separated from each other.
"Is he even attracted to a mech?"

Great question, rewind back when you and Soundwave together in a scout mission. The feelings of his tendrils wrap around your waist while you two are just walking.
"If you haven't confessed until the end of the war, you probably will feel empty." He's right, he is always damn right. There is no way of denying it anymore.
"You know what Ratchet, fragging made me injured to make like we were fighting."

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"Ratchet sure gets your aft kicked that... Hard. Look what he has done to your paintjob!"
"I can always repaint it back."
"Make sure to wax it also, you smell like dirt." What does the dirt smell like again? You go to your shared habsuite, laying on the berth thinking about what your ex-amica just said to you during your scout mission.

"If you haven't confessed until the end of the war, you probably will feel empty."

Right...

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🂬Guilt🂬

My ass hurts because of sitting in the car for too long 😮‍💨😮‍💨 until next time I guess 🥲🥲 bye girlyyyyyyy boiling.