REMINISCENT

CHAPTER THIRTY TWO: You Don't Even Know Me (EDITED)

Ashley's POV
It's been a month since the anniversary, a whole month yeah?

A month since I've been feeling like there's no point to life anymore. A month since I started skipping therapy, my medication, sometimes even food. I've hit depression, guess I'm back to fighting with the darkness within. Oh it's also been a month since Aiden has been 'officially off the market' good for him.

The finals had passed in a blur, I don't even remember writing them. The seniors are busy prepping for graduation and the biggest party of the year, which is today.

Am I going? Hmm let me thi- hell no. Mom told me to go, that was before she left for work but I'm making no move to get ready for it.

Mom's no fool, I know she knows I'm mentally in a bad place. I've been hearing her talk to dad about it and they seem to want to come up with some solution, I wonder what they think will work, more therapy? The thought almost made me laugh, almost

Charlie has been reaching out to me, I've been trying to care. I really have but it's hard. I heard him on a conference call with mom and dad coming up with the 'next step'. Whatever that means

"Get up"

"Fu- oh gosh don't do that" I held my racing heart "how did you even- you know what I really care less" I flipped to the next channel

"Ashley get up" she folded her arms blocking my view

"Chanel? Please get out of my way" I sighed

She grabbed my arm and pulled me to my feet "we are going for the party" she started dragging me upstairs

"I don't want to go anywhere. I've showered. I'm not mopping in my room, I'm doing everything I normally do so what's the big deal?" I glared at the back of her head

She opened my door and dragged me in "yes you have, big fucking deal. But you look dead"

I laughed "I died 4 years ago"

She looked at me blankly "remember? The car crash? The one wh-" she cut me off by turning and walking into my closet

I sighed, I hate when I can't talk her out of doing something "you won't find anything"
She walked out with a little black dress I didn't know I had with a pair of black pointed laced stiletto ankle boots. Huh who knew I had that

She grabbed my brush and mousse from my bathroom as well as my makeup bag. She placed them in between us and removed the band the was holding my excuse of a bun up

She slowly brushed my hair and styled it. I didn't have it in me to start fighting her so I sat quietly.

She turned me so I could face her. I sat cross legged and stared at her as she filled in my brows "why are you doing this?" I asked

She ignored me still working on my brows. I sighed again resisting the urge to slouch "at least say something, I'm not liking the story the voices in my head are telling"

She didn't crack a smile "it's a joke jeez lighten up" i rolled my eyes

"I've missed you Ashley" she frowned still avoiding my eyes by focusing on what she was doing to my face

I closed my eyes as she moved to work on my lids "yeah" was all I could say, I miss me too. "How's your mom" I say instead

"She's good, she's gotten bigger. She'll be putting to birth soon" she sounded a bit too happy and I inwardly sighed, I can't wish sadness on anyone

"That's good. Catch me up, what did I miss?" I asked knowing very well she'd think I'm feeling like my spirits have been lifted

I opened my eyes and for sure she bought it, her eyes lit up and she smiled "wellll" she said squirting foundation at the back of her palm "I'm talking to D more, oh and Jake and I have gotten closer" her cheeks slightly turned pink "I mean it's not like that like that but you know we're just...enjoying each other's company"