I know your secret. ( Revamp )

Miyadera. (Readers Pov. )⚠️

           ( Heavy trigger warning for incest, attempted murder and unhealthy obsession )

          After the movie ended last night I decided to leave early. I could hardly sleep at the thought of telling Kiyo that I liked him. After all this time I never actually noticed my feelings. My heart racing when I spoke to him, my face heating up and of course my legs feeling like jello. All of this was very new to me, It took me awhile to fall asleep but once I did, I managed to get a good six hours.

           My phone buzzed next to my head as I woke up, it was already morning. I sat up as the sun beamed through my window, the sun alone would have woken me up rather than my phone. I shuffled out of bed and grabbed my uniform. I felt so sluggish, maybe it was too much ramune from yesterday. I threw on my uniform after taking off my pajamas and throwing it into the hamper placed by my door. Although the thing that really woke me up, was the idea of being able to actually see Korekiyo today, alone. To tell him how I felt, to actually express it to him! The thought felt a bit scary but I tried not to be too worried about it. I grabbed my bag as I headed to school. Making sure Korekiyo didn't forget about the plan, on my way downstairs I sent him a text before leaving for school.

-Hopes peak academia (Morning hour)-

Once I arrived, looking at the school I felt nauseous. Although I tried to appear more upbeat than I normally had been. Because today I needed all the confidence I could get. I took a deep breath and walked into the school, only a few people were here this early, teachers, examiners, and club leaders. Although I felt like the odd one out. Before I could even think about that, I had to get upstairs, just to make sure Kiyo wasn't already here! I switched out my shoes at my shoe locker and made my way up the stairs to the roof. Although before I could even climb the last set of stairs, my legs felt like jello. So wobbly, so weak. I took a shakey breath as I tried to move slowly. Kokichi must have really opened my eyes, did I always act this way around Kiyo?! My heart always leaped when I was around him..not to mention the excessive palm sweating and clenched throat. My hand briefly pushed against the rooftop doors as I walked out. The sun nearly blinded me as the white reflection of the tile of the roof nearly burned my eyes. I walked around for a moment, no sign of Kiyo. It made sense, he hadn't responded to my message yet, let alone it was a bit early, still had two hours before the talent exam. I sat on one of the rooftop benches and pondered. What would I say? How would I say it? Did I at least look good today? I sighed gripping onto my phone. It pained me to wait, actually I hated it especially now. I was waiting on the school roof to ask my best friend to go on a date with me! I hardly had any time to think about this because- Kokichi was right. All this time I did like Kiyo. I was just protecting myself from being hurt.
I heard the rooftop doors open as my thoughts wondered away from me. A jolt of energy rushed through my veins as I got up. Turning to the sound of the rooftop door. "Korekiyo! I..I thought you wouldn't show up for awhile! Truth is..I was so overthinking this and I thought that..-" The exaggeration through words controlled my actions, movements, eye placement. Everything, I hardly even noticed who was standing in front of me.
"..Oh Korekiyo won't be joining us today." The sound of a sweet feminine voice caught my eyes. Miyadera.
"Miyadera!? What are you doing here!? Wait- Where is Korekiyo!?" I questioned, she giggled placing a hand under her chin. Her hair flowed with the wind, she was so beautiful, painfully beautiful. Her lips gentle like the moon, her eyes reflected any light perfectly. It was painful how beautiful she was, gut wrenching. "Korekiyo is not coming, as for us, we have a conversation to get to, what were you going to tell my brother?" Her voice went from gentle, to serious. Quick. It was still beautiful, her face, her voice. It hurt. "That's- none of your business! You have no right to know what I was going to talk to him about..!" I gripped the straps of my bag as she approached closer to me. Her hair still flowing with the hum of the wind. The corners of her mouth, dropping. Her eyebrows following the rhythm of her mouth. "Korekiyo will not have permission to go out with you. I see the way you look at him, drool over him, you must be so obsessed with him. I will not have that, not with my brother." I felt intimidated, not by her words, by her confidence. "I-...What are you trying to get out of me!?" She paused, as well as I, the sound of the wind blew past our ears. Although it yelled in mine. "Korekiyo is not interested. I am sick of you putting twisted lies in his head. You're friends with the biggest slut in the school..she now knows I've been getting drugs on campus. I can't have anyone spread anymore rumors about me that could damage my reputation. Especially my reputation with Korekiyo. I will not have it be ruined by someone who is trying to take my brother from me." She took baby steps towards me, with every word she spoke she grew angrier. More aggression possessed her voice, more confidence possessed her posture. I gulped slowly, gripping my bag harder. I couldn't say anything, although the silence was interrupted by my phone ringing. It buzzed heavily in my pocket. Someone was calling, and Miyadera knew who it was; so did I. "..Miyadera I won't tell anyone! It's just in your condition you shouldn't be taking drugs!" Her eyes widened. "You do know! Korekiyo told you about my condition..of course he told you. He is in love with you after all." I almost didn't process the last part of the sentence. In love. With me? Korekiyo had kept secrets well, although, I never got the hint he liked me?! "I..I do! But it's not something to be ashamed of, really! It's just not safe to do drugs while you're..sick." Miyadera rolled her eyes. As pretty as she was, she was downright disgusting. "..Right. You wouldn't know anything about my condition. You don't deserve to know and you don't deserve Korekiyo." I felt my ankle press against the railing behind me as she got closer. I panicked, I couldn't run, she would catch me, make a lie, not only that, but I felt frozen. Korekiyo, please if you help me, let this be the time you do. "..Korekiyo may be my brother, however he is mine, our blood is one, our hearts our one. I will not let you ruin that, I will not let you ruin my relationship with my brother just because you have a crush on him. I love him more than you will ever know. You know too much now, about the drugs, about us, about Korekiyo. Don't even try to make me feel better by your mushy words." My calves were now pressed against the railing. "..Miyadera- You can't love your brother like that- There is science and..so much other stuff behind it. I..I'm sorry for whatever I've done! Although I am not sorry for being friends with your brother! Your brother is the most amazing person I have ever met!" Miyadera's face grew with disgust. She was obviously mad, more than that, enraged. It almost made me hurl with how anxious my stomach had clenched up.
           "My brother is mine. I would let you go. However. You know about everything. The drugs, the condition, Korekiyo's feelings. If anyone were to get in the way of the control I want, I will take any measure to have it adjusted." She was now up to me, close. I had no escape, my hand gripped the railing. I hoped buying some time could help Korekiyo get here faster. Although nothing could come out of my throat. I felt defeated, I only hoped she would poor Fanta on me like how Kokichi did to her yesterday. "I wouldn't tell anyone!" I said. She scoffed in response. "Really!? Not a soul!? Your friend spilled Soda all over my uniform because he knew what my intentions were with Korekiyo..trust me. They won't have long before their lives are ruined as well. Especially Miu. Now with you here..I will pass the talent exam by default..! I will have a class with my brother." The corners of her mouth began to rise. I could hardly think. I turned my head, hoping to hear the rooftop door, hoping to see Korekiyo. Hoping Korekiyo would hold me in his arms. I felt sick, too sick. I wanted to go home and lie in the bed that I slept in, clothe myself in the fabrics that kept me warm in the winter. All with Korekiyo. Just, Korekiyo. "..I'm sorry It had to end like this R/N." Miyadera said. I looked to her as she shoved my upper body off of the roof. She quickly took the shoes off of my feet and placed them by the railing. I fell. I was falling. Maybe a single change would have prevented this. I couldn't help my friends, I couldn't help Korekiyo. I was..dead. Already. I was dead. I couldn't accept it, not like a hug, or a friend. Death, was not what I accepted. Although, I hoped to be held in the clouds like a bird.