Elvira's Letters

Chapter 7

I couldn't stop thinking about Felicia. After all, I didn't know this woman at all, and I felt safe around her. I didn't understand this feeling. After all, I had the same relationship with her as I had with Marjorie, but something was different. I felt that Feliciya would be more than just an acquaintance. I really wanted to get to know her better. At the same time, I had a feeling in the back of my head that she would treat me as an ordinary patient and send me to another psychologist. To be honest, I didn't want to go to the therapist the woman signed me up for. I just wanted her. No one else seemed to understand me like she did. There was something special about her. Something no one has ever had before. I felt like I wanted to be friends with her. Well, I had to take the first step. She wouldn't know what I mean. She had so many things on her mind. Or so it seemed to me. In fact, I was surprised that she was active on Facebook almost all the time, but I decided that she just likes multitasking. I felt that I really needed her, so one day we went to the park together. It was cloudy, but that didn't stop me. It was a mistake. Heavy rain poured down. Neither of us had an umbrella. Fortunately, it turned out that Feliciya lives really close to the park in the very center of the city. She invited me. Her penthouse was lavishly furnished. The woman had class. She made us coffee. We sat on the couch and started talking. I told her I didn't want to go to that therapist. I wanted to give myself a chance. After all, I knew that one day I would succeed. Maybe tomorrow, maybe in a million years. Only I knew the answer.
- Felicia.. I should thank you - I said quietly.
- Me? I haven't done anything. - The woman smiled slightly.
- You've done a lot. You've given me the chance to make the change I need. I really appreciate you - I replied honestly.
- It's a trifle. - The woman burst out laughing.
It's no small thing! Feliciya Roma! You gave me a chance no one gave me! You made me believe that I can change! Oh Felicia.. you don't even know how much I would like to be your friend.. - I replied very seriously.
- I think we already are.. Elvira.. we'll run away from here. Just you and me. This city doesn't deserve us. - Felicia said quite seriously. The smile disappeared from her face.
- What are you talking about.. - I replied surprised
- What you hear. If you want, I'll help you escape reality. - Felicia replied.
- It's not going to solve my problems... Running away is never a good solution! Problems need to be faced, not avoided!. Haven't you gone mad by any chance? - I said in a very serious tone.
- I'm not crazy, see? You've already changed. You realized that you can't run away from your problems, you have to face them. I'm so proud of you! And even very much - Feliciya replied cheerfully and the smile instantly returned to her face.
- Hey! You're a good actress! I fell for it! But right! Now I have even more to thank you for! I'd like to ask you one thing. It's been bugging me right from the start. You're a great therapist, so why aren't you professionally it anymore? - I asked the woman a question.
- Ehhh... it's a long story, but I think I can tell you. So you see.. I worked in a hospital, I didn't have my own private office, but I didn't care at all. I had a lot of patients who adored me. Until... The hospital changed hands... and so did the staff. I don't know why I left, I don't know why my "friends" at work supported the decision of a man who hated me from the first meeting. I haven't done anything. After this incident, I broke down. I know.. it was very obvious from me, your first reaction didn't surprise me at all. People on the street looked at me the same way. They were heartless. But you, Elvira Rodriguez, gave me a spark of hope... a twinkle in my eye that told me it might be worth starting over. Start from the beginning. Meet new people and, above all, take care of yourself, because in the end, sadness is a feeling that shouldn't last forever. After every storm, the sun comes out, and after every fall, there is an ascent. More or less intense, but it always has to happen. That's the order of things. I should say thank you. You showed me that there is still hope for me and that I can still help someone. Elvira... I think we both help each other. And this is beautiful. All my life I dreamed of such a friend. I like Marjorie a lot, but I feel like she's starting to pull away from me. It hurts me because I want to be close to her. She told me her marriage is failing and that I shouldn't interfere. I just wanted to help them. You have no idea how happy I was when you moved in with her. I knew I would be needed again. For a moment, I wasn't just a plan B, a relief for mind in the process of saving a marriage. Thank you Elvira.. you changed my life. - said Felicia
I was in shock after this conversation. What I didn't know was that Marjorie and Felicia's relationship was full of misunderstandings. After all, the woman seemed extremely nice, and you can see that she also had some problem. Unfortunately, Marjorie apparently didn't think there was one. This is how friendships that were supposed to last for years break down. I felt so sorry for Felicia. Marjorie didn't even want to spend any time with her while the woman was tearing herself apart so that everyone around her would be happy. The result was poor, which made her pure spirits drop. I was proud that I helped her see all the colors of the rainbow in the blue sky again. Feliciya, after all, had feelings just like any other human being. Her story made me look at Marjorie in an even different way. It seemed to me that she wanted to dump her marital problem on someone. She must have been deceiving herself. Believe that the reason is not obvious. I didn't know it, but I felt he wasn't very complex. And Marjorie just wanted to dump it, hurting first Felicia and then me. I didn't feel up to talking to her about it. Feliciya didn't want to bring it up either. We secretly hoped that Marjorie and Ryan would divorce and it would be over. I didn't mean to be unkind, but I felt it was the only thing that would help them. My thoughts were usually right, even when I didn't know the problem. I guess that was my great gift. Still, I didn't tell Marjorie about it. I didn't want to hurt her, because after all, she might do the same. Even worse. After all, when I started to see the world differently. I understood that she could be not only my potential enemy, but also a person who, like me, needs to learn to solve problems and mitigate conflicts.
I didn't know anything anymore.