Summary:Her calming you down and helping you thrue your panic attack.
(I decided to add y/n as a main character let me know how yall think this worked out)
Y/n pov
It was early in the morning when I was awoken by my lovely girlfriend Victoria.
She literally and i mean LITERALLY started jumping on the bed we share and giggling like crazy .When i started to open my eyes she jumped down almost falling on top of me agen loughing like crazy .
She told me wery exited.
-loveeeeeeeee, wake up I know your awake so stop pretendingggggg
She said while exagerating her words .All of a sudden she started giving me pecks all over my face and at that I started giggling too.
-See I knew you were awake
Said she.
I then gave her a kiss saying good morning baby.
She told me she want to go to the mall to buy some new clothes becouse and I quote "I'm just really tired of my clothes".
So i agreed .
We got up and started to get ready tho most of the time we just kept loughing our asses of from each other.
When we finally got ready it was about lunch time so we decided to grab some snacks before we left.
Vic ran to the kitchen and comed back with some doritos that she puted in her bag with a bottle of water and a banana in hand.
She pealed off the banana and started giving me half of it one bite she the next she would give me.(i dont know does this make sense sorry if it doesnt but i hope it does,if you dont like any of the snack mentioned just change to what you like :).
We finally arrived.
We drove in Vic's car by that i mean she was driving the whole time while i was trying to annoy her and also scream some songs with her which the 2nd thing worked pretty well.
So as i said here we are .It's huge.....
I've always been scared of places like malls becouse there are a lot if peaple and becouse of my social anxiety i start to panic and have panic attacks.
When we first came in i got this instant hit to my chest and stomach .I already felt bad ,but i decided to not tell Vic anything it's not like I will be for ever able to hide I have to socialize once in a while if not for me than fir her knowing how good her social skills and social life especialy becouse shes a rockstar.
Vic was wearing glasses and cople morr acesories that coverd her more so peaple wouldint run to her which i really appreciated so that way we could be together uninterupted.
We started off by going to clothes shops and decided after buiyng what we need,see what we want.
When we went in to this one store it was crowded I thought"oh dear lord help me plase"but I just took a deep breath and went in .
I didint really want anything so I just looked at cople of shirts and thats it while Vic went crazyyyyy in the leather pants section. When i looked at her she was calling me over to tell her my opinion on the leather pants . I looked around seing a lot of peaple giving me side eyes(bombastic side eye,criminal offensive side eye )and dirty looks.I felt judged,bad.Which triggered even more my enxiety.
I went over to Vic and she showed me royal blue,skinny, leacher pants and red skinny at thighs loose from the knee part with crosses sticing at sizes .
When she showed me them she asked.
-which one you think look better on me baby.?
I replied.
-Well both off them will make your ass look great ,but tge red ones will shows to much knowing the stiching seperates when you put them on and i feel like you can wear what ever you want but whats mine mine so that way it should stay so imma go with the blue ones.
I said.
-okay ,thanks baby ,your the best .Whats yours yours and im all yours .
She said and then gave me a quick peck on the cheek .
-Okay imma go and try them on.
She said while running off .
I felt even more peaple stare and i fel so.... insecure,like something is wrong with me (just so yaal know there is nothing wrong with any of you or they them or anything you think of youreself so dont worry and dont think bad of youreself even thou its easier said than done) i felt judged and over all horrible.
I felt my chest thighten and i felt it was hard for me to breath I felt a lump in my throat and suddenly peaples stares becomed unbearable to me.
So I ran to the changing cabins. (im not sure how theyre called)
Once I got there i sat donw on the little bench they got there in each of the cabin and started hyperventilating.(also not sure if i wrote it well).
I soon started to cry and sob .I putted my hand on my mouth trying to calm down and muffle the sobs when suddenly i heard her ....Vic...
-baby ,where are you ?
She asked while leaving her cabin .
And suddenly she ran in my cabin .
The cabins didint have doors they had curtains that eft about 10 cm visible from the ground .
When she ran in she inantly kneeled down in front of me .
She gently picked my face up and wiped my tears away with her thumbs .
-baby ,baby here shhhhh its okay im here its okat im here .
She kept saying when she sat down on the bench and sat me on her lap.
She knew about ny mental health I just tried to tell her the less I can and the more I can for her so that it wouldnt get in the way in our relationship and she wouldnt have to change her lifestyle for me .
While i was sat on her lap she gently coed and rocked me back and forth telling me to take deep breath with her ..... and it was working.actually..... which left me a bit surprised at how fast it helped knowing that I needed way more time than she did.
When i finally calmed down she spoke to me about it saying .
-Love ,please tell me what happened ,what coused your panic attack ,ewerything.Of course if you dont mind talking about it.
She added the last part wery fats.
I told her how the peaples stares made me feel and how so many peaple just waling around and pushing some becouse of the lack of space some for other reasons maybe made me feel I told her it all while she kept hugging me tight.
Once I finish telling her everything she asked if I was okay with her going to pay for her leather pants and leaving the store.
Once she paid we went to a much smaller -prety small café and ordered some ice cream (im not sure can you buy ice cream in a café ,but lets just pretend for the story).
At that moment I felt wery happpy to have a such a caring and loving girlfriend .
We ate our ice cream and i thanked her for everything then she just kissed me and told me to never thank her for anything like that becouse its her duty to make sure im okay . WHEN I TELL YOU MY HEART MELTED AT THAT .
We went home and the whole day Vic kept saying how brave I am and how proud she is of me .
I felt the most loved i ever had in my whole entire life just by being in her arms.
Authors note:.
Word count:1402.
Okay im sorry i hadnt updated in so long i had authors block to be honest i think ill have slow updates.Please do tell me what you all think i read all of your coments and i really apreciate and thank you all for so maany votes and reads and love i thank you all wery much and if you have any requests dont be shy leave them in coments.
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I hope you all enjoyed.
