Summer Lovin'

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5:23 is the time my phone screen showed as I sleepily looked at it. I was unhappy being awoken this early. I had never been able to sleep out here, I never knew why but that's why I always took the pull out on the inside of the house.

I slowly went into my backpack that was laid down next to me and put on an oversized sweatshirt over me feeling the cold breeze against my skin. I put my hair into a messy bun slid on my converse already having my socks on from last night, and I grabbed my lighter and a joint I had stored in a secret pocket.

I walked down to the dock as the new light made its appearance. I sat down at the edge letting my feet dangle off the side of the dock. I lifted the joint to my lips and held it in there while I reached for my lighter.

I lit the lighter and a flame appeared lighting up my surroundings. I brought it close to my face and lit the joint. I inhaled it and blew it back into the world.

I did that for a while as I watched the sun slowly get higher and higher in the sky. It was peaceful being there before the world had woken up.

I sat in silence until I heard the sound of shuffling footsteps getting closer to me. I didn't turn having an idea of who it was.

"Cant sleep?" He asks me

I took a moment before nodding my head not wanting to make small talk with him.

"I think I finally sobered up" he continued and sat next to me keeping an unusual amount of distance between us. I kept my eyes focused forward not wanting to look at him and keeping a blank expression.

I could feel his gaze burning into me as we sat in silence.

"Look Hannah can you just say something" he says managing to find the words.

"What do you want me to say" I say still looking forward with numbness in my voice.

"Anything!" He says "how about how much you hate me, or-or that we're done" he says with sadness

"I don't hate you" I say sadly wondering about how he would even think that "I love you that's why I'm so mad at you" I say with anger raising my voice.

But he didn't know what to say, he just sat there with a sad look on his face.

"You love me?" He asks in a playful way
"Come on JJ, don't do that right now" I say back as JJ tried to put a smile on my face.

"Look Hannah, I know what I said to you was shitty.
And I shouldn't have said it." He said to me "I didn't mean any of it" he said making it clear

"I know you didn't" I say sadly still not looking at him "but it still really hurt"

More silence feel over us as we both searched for words.

"You know I love you too, right?" He asked among me blush

"Now I do" I say playfully back
"I never want to hurt you" he says sadly making me look at him.

I felt my eyes drifting down to his lips and him mirroring my actions. I knew in this moment he wouldn't kiss me first so I had make the first move. I leaned in and placed my lips onto his. The kiss was slow and intimate and loving. He placed his hands on the sides of my face making me feel even more loved.

We both pulled away and I rested my head on his chest as he snaked his had around my body making me feel secure. "I love you" he repeated as I put all my weight into him as he held me.

We stayed silent before I spoke out.
"If you ever do something like that again, I'm gonna kill you" I say mostly seriously

I felt his body moving as he laughed at me. I let out a light laugh feeling like things were going back to normal. "I wouldn't doubt it" he says back kissing my forehead as a smile grew on my face.