Story Of My Life

Chapter 6

I don't know what to feel after Dunk told me about Pond liking someone else. I told Dunk that it's just a crush but i myself know that it's definitely more than a crush. But after hearing that information I had no idea what to do or feel now. Should I try to forget about him and move on or should I , confess to him. But what if he don't feel the same , I'm sure we can't just be friends again like that , it will totally get uncomfortable when we will be together and also I don't want him to feel bad for me. So in the end I just convinced myself that being friends will be much better in the end , atleast he can be by my side as a friend forever.

Time passes quickly and now winter is already here. And my feelings for Pond is still the same or maybe even more now. Trust me I try to let go of my feelings and move on but the way Pond treats me ,  it's very hard , it's very hard to not fall deeper. Anyone would fall for him , i sure and I don't know if it's just me or not but sometimes I feel like he used to treat me more nicely than he usually treat others , even Joong&Dunk told me that but I always say they are mistaken because I don't wanna be delulu and get my hopes up.
But even last time he treated me so nice when we went out that Joong thought we were already a couple.

Come on , open your mouth Phuu , taste this , it's very tasty ; Pond said as he put a spoon near my mouth.
PHUuuu come here , let me carry you on my back , Pond said when I hurt my leg.
Phuuu come here let me give you a hug , I'm proud of you; Pond said out of nowhere.
And even last time when we all drank together, Pond hug me and told me that he love me alot , he kept on saying ILoveYou , ILoveYou , ILoveYou to me and asking me if I love him too , but I since we were drinking i thought that he's probably drunk and just saying whatever he want , but those words did make my heart beat full of happiness and sadness.
But Joong told me that it's weird since  Pond don't get drunk easily and even if he's drunk he don't behave like that with anyone. So whether Pond is drunk or not , there's a bit of happiness in me that I'm the first person that he showed this kind of behaviour.

Also at the end , Joong got a hint that I may have feelings for Pond and ask he directly, and me thinking since there's no point of hiding it I told him the truth but make him promise me to not tell Pond about it at all. I promise Phuwin, I won't tell him anything cause I want you yourself to tell it to him. And I want you to know that whether you believe it or not , I know that Pond feels something for you too , although he haven't told me anything about it , I'm sure he does ,I can look in his eyes cause once upon a time I was in love too and i think Dunk already told you about Pond having an eye for someone, forget about it cause even Pond himself has stop visiting him ; Joong said to me as he gives me a thumbs up encouraging me to believe in myself.

After what Joong told me , I have a little bit of faith and got a bit of courage to maybe confess my feelings to Pond , cause since Joong and Pond's are bestfriend they should know about each other right. Or what if I'm wrong. Again anxiety hits me again. I always doubt myself now since I can never know what anyone is thinking, it's scared me when people are being too lovely with me cause I always think they are planning to hurt me.

“ Phuwin Pov ”

It was a normal day at work and since it's getting colder day by day , the cafe use to be full all the time , making it a bit hard for me to have a break. After servicing the customer 5 hours straight, I could finally get a break , but the moment I was planning to take a break , someone ask me for a coffee again , and he was no ordinary person;

Hello, excuse me , can I have one cup of coffee please.

Sure just a minute please; I said ( irritated by the fact that they just ruin my break time )