Angel of Mine (Jenlisa FF)

Chapter 12

Lisa's POV

I fucked up...

Really...fucked up...

I mean...this time...I really screwed up big time...

We were talking and laughing after a week of silence that I still don't know why it came up. We walked towards the motel, I taught her how to dance, we began to prepare ourselves to sleep, I gave her my present which she liked so much that she tackled me to the ground with her on top of me...and then...the next thing I know...we...we kissed.

Not a friendly kiss mind you. It was a 'I want to be more than a friend' kiss...I think. It seemed like we were kissing...for a long time. I felt the time stopped...and we just continued kissing. It was intense...I never felt anything like it. Though...it feels familiar also...

And so...there we were...on the floor...with her on top of me...kissing. And what happened when she pulled away? We just stared at each other for awhile...then I fucked up by saying...

"I-I... think we should get some...sleep...we have a...um...big day tomorrow...yeah...so...um..."

I didn't look at her when I said it. I think it was a minute before she got up and lay on the bed facing her side. I frowned, cursing myself feeling her warmth slowly fading. I missed her already...

I got up and turned off the lights. I slowly lay on my side and looked at her for a while. I know she's not asleep and I wanted to wrap my arms around her and hold her tight. But I didn't...I just stared at the ceiling until I fell asleep...

I wasn't surprised when I woke up around 12 noon with her gone. I expected it. I thought we were going to be okay since we talked about how we acted...but now...I think we'll grow apart even more.

"Lisa...you coward..."

I told myself as I got up and decided to take the shower and head towards Mr. Giles mansion since that were my gown is...

Jennie's POV

Stupid...

Stupid Jennie...

I shouldn't have kissed her...

I sighed as I sat down in a room with Rosé at Mr. Giles's big house where the wedding is going to be held at his garden. I told her what happened and well...she was happy and angry at the same time. She was happy because we kissed...and was angry when we didn't say anything nor do anything after that. We just slept in the same bed avoiding each other.

I cried that night when I heard her sleeping. After that kiss, I wanted to tell her everything when we pulled away from each other. But...I saw her eyes and knew that she was somehow...afraid...like me.

I'm scared. Scared that she might not have the same feelings that I'm feeling for her. Scared that once she knows how I felt...she'd feel disgusted. Just plain scared.

"I'm a coward..."

I said softly as I held my head on my hands. I heard Rosé get up and head towards me putting her hand on my shoulder.

"Don't say that...I know it's hard to admit someone that you love her. Especially when that someone is Lisa. Lisa didn't experience that kind of love that you're giving her...that's why I think she's holding back. She's afraid Jennie...just like you are..."

I couldn't help but look at Rosé with amazement. She can be so deep...and smart. I smiled at her...

"I never thought of that...maybe...maybe you're right."