YOU.

Kaylee's pov:

Date- 29/11/23
From- @kayleebaylee
To- @Bennetjolie
Subject- e-mails I can't send, The boy I loved first. YOU

Dear Bennett,
It's 2:6 in the morning I leave tomorrow and my eyes sting from crying and my head is pounding but I guess it's about time to say goodbye. For months now I've been holding on to the idea of you, of us. Now I realise I've to finally let it go. The idea of you is dragging into a darker and darker cave and I've realised I miss the sunlight. I want to get out of this cave. I know no one could love you the way I could but I've to put myself first, for once. I deserve someone who loves me like I love you. I hope you know you'll always be a part of me. The boy I loved first.
I loved you. I loved you with every piece of myself. I cared about you, I always reached out and left bad if we didn't talk for hours but hours turned into days, days turned into lonely nights and eventually into months of internal hurt. I wondered when you'd reach out to me but that day never came. I needed to realise I wasn't as important to you as you were to me. And this is the hardest decision I had to make. To let my bestfriend go. The one I thought I would never have to say goodbye to. I wondered if you cared, and you did just not enough for me.
You deserved to know I loved. I still do you'll forever have a piece of my heart. I cry for you, ache for you and retouch our memories that slowly fade away. I know I was important to you as you were to me. I'll forever hold our memories. I know we'll never be the same but I will always feel the same for you. Your like a song I'll forever have on replay, Always my favourite.
You caught me in a hold when I was at my worst yet you left me... everyone leaves eventually but I thought you were different. I thought you meant it when you said you would never leave me but I guess I was wrong.
I don't know if I should keep waiting for you or just forget you cause some say it's painful to wait for someone but some say it's painful to forget someone but the worst pain comes when you don't know whether to wait or forget.
Maybe one day we'll meet again and explain to each other what really happened. Maybe one we'll finally understand until then I hope you live your best life...I guess I'll never finish falling in love with you.

Everytime I smile
I hope your watching
Hoping that you'll fall for my smile
Just as Hard
As I fell
For yours.

Now ik what it feels like to love someone whatever you do u can't turn away From ur feelings you can't stop urself from loving them but
In the future by some miracle you ever find yourself in the position to fall in love again, fall in love with me.

I might be the writer but you'll always be the words.

You'll never be unloved by me.
-k

Makeouthill ( kaylee's youtube channel imagine she wrote and sang it)