Come Back To Me

19. A Dream

Sun start filling colors in to the night skies, Gulf just couldn't shut his eyes close, what was he thinking, his heart crushing hard, tears break the barrier and unstoppable cascade to his cheeks. The pillow working so hard absorb those pained tears, the blanket hugs him so tight, if they can talk, they will try to calm this broken soul. 

Some days, I wonder, if you miss me.

Other days, I wonder, why I'm still wondering

I miss your arms, that feel more like home than any house ever did

And because you are a dream, I slept a lot, but now, I choose not to sleep at all because I can not bear the pain when I woke up and you are not beside me. I felt so much hurt just by missing you, when you are not even remembered me.

I'm trying to forget you, but I'm also waiting for you to come back.

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Gulf grab his phone, dial to his manager slash best friend Mild "I hope I don't have any important thing today, I need rest" he said sounds hoarse.

Mild knew it too well that his best friend are not well, "Can I come? I will bring you breakfast" Mild asked. 

Gulf never let anyone to come to his condo, not even Mild, not even his parents. Gulf just lock himself, drowning into the pain is his favourite activity.

Silent...

"Okay I will go there, just don't do anything. Just sleep as you always did. Give me ten minutes" Mild abrutly said while running for his life.

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Just when Mild arrived, Gulf seating on the couch, thick blanket wrap him and a cup of warm milk in his palms, staring blankly at the busy city view of his condo. Messy hair and the tired eyes shown clearly. Mild eyes him and take a deep breath. "At least you stayed sane, I'm glad, oh my god you freaked me out."

Gulf giving him side eye "What were you thinking, I'm not that stupid, I just need a day off"

Mild took another side of the couch "You acted so well you know, when you doing your job, you smile warmly to everyone like you are fine, but you can't fool me, you still hurt didn't you? You never talked about it" Mild giving concern to gulf conditions.

Gulf silently nodded. Eyes keep staring blankly to the window.

"He is moved to Hong Kong recently" Mild stated.

Gulf snapped his head to Mild and turn his gaze to the window again, still keeping his mouth shut.

"Maybe I sound rude, but can you move on? or at least respect your well being? You are a famous person, many peoples rooting for you. Love your self?" Mild continued.

Silent...

"I take yes on your silent" Mild said, exhales sharp.

"One of fanmeet will coming soon, you know that. We expect you can prepare for that, at least your sanity, please" Mild desperately asking. "For now you can take a rest, and don't do anything stupid" Mild pointing his index finger to Gulf. "Why you acted mute now, I'm done. I have meeting in the office, I will go now"

Gulf just nodded, and leaned his body on the side rest still wrapped by a thick blanket.

"Hong Kong" Tasting the word in his mouth.

Right after Mild left, Gulf grab his phone again just to call Mild again. "Can I go early?" Gulf asked excitingly

"I should just shut my mouth you giving me a headache" Mild exhales deeply and continue "YES I will arranges that" He shut the call not waiting for Gulf answer.

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Gulf, You have a place in my heart no one else ever could have.