Mind | Eyes | Drugs

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*TAK

"....arghh...aannh"

The first thing you heard was the sound of your head smashing the counter...
and then the pain hit you...

"Hmm..? Was it too harsh?"

He said while giggling
You heard a voice coming from behind, your head was spinning like crazy but you manage to recognize the owner of that voice... it was sanzu...
You felt his hand grabbing your head and pressing it down to the counter. You tried to lift your head but it was no good, he chuckled at your attempt.

"What? Can't lift your head?..."

He whispered in your ear, you flinched at the feeling of his hot breath on your ear. the voice sent shivers down to your spine. While trying to remember why on earth you were under him, his hand switched to your nape. It was painful... as if he was trying to break your neck...

"...nng"

You couldn't say a word, still trying to remember what happened. You heard a metallic sound and soon after a smell... gunpowder... you griped the side of the counter not from the pain but fear..

"C'mon now... why so scared?"

You can feel his piercing eyes on back of your head, you turned your head to the side, only to see his smug face.
He was having fun... his eyes were a bit reddish probably because of the drugs he consumed...
You felt the gun on your head... the smell was causing you to remember the times where you accompanied Sanzu to his "playtimes". You always knew that someday you're going to be a part of his "plays" but not this soon...
Not like this... you gulped

"S-sanzu...!"

He pressed the gun to your head, harder...

"Finally speaking, huh? I was starting to think I
overdosed you"

Said as he caressed his thumb on your nape..
You felt adrenaline rushing through your body... once again you stole a glance at him but this time your eyes met. You felt your chest was getting heavier, his eyes were intense.

"I—... I... D-did I do-...... some-..ng.. thing wrong..!?"

You managed to ask to the pink haired man. He furrowed at your question. You saw his disbelief in his eyes.

"...You fucking slut!"

He screamed as his hands digging into your nape harder.

"Haahhaha!! .....I had no FUCKING idea that I had a studip slut by my side for all this time?!"

You flinched at his words ,"slut"? What does he mean by that? You couldn't think straight as his hand started to dig deeper.

"..mngh..."

You let out a small moan from the pain.

"....."

He stayed silent for a while and then slowly let go of your nape. You felt a slight relief which caused you to loosen up your grip on the counter unconsciously. But the silence didn't last long...

".... Can't you even take a little bit pain?... If so... then..WHY THE HELL ARE YOU DOING THINGS THAT'S GONNA MAKE ME PUNISH YOU!!?"

He screamed, You couldn't help but try to hide your face at his words. He didn't like it... He didn't like it when he couldn't see your face... he wanted to see your reaction so he can decide what to do with you.

"Why are you being shy now? ...or did you get ashamed now that I'm calling your shit out!?"

He lowered the gun as his other hand grabbed you by the shoulder and turned you over. He wasted no time in pointing the gun at you once again but this time it was under your chin. You jerked at this sudden change but even so you were still not looking at his way. He placed a light pressure on the gun to raise your face a bit so he could see your face better.

"Why aren't you looking at me?... FUCKING LOOK AT ME, SLUT!!"

He grabbed your face and got closer to you. You could feel his breath on your lips. His grip was no joke... you slowly opened your eyes and saw those crazed eyes. You were used to see those eyes looking at his "playthings" but it was your first time seeing them looking at you. You gulped... you knew something was not right but... you didn't think that he would look at you with those eyes. You felt that he can kill you just by looking at you. You tried to speak...

"I- I'm s-sor—...."

He strengthened his grip on your jaw not letting you finish.

"Do you even know what your apologizing for, huh? I bet you don't..."

He was right you don't have any idea what's happening, you just wanted to ease him with your words so you could escape from his bad side even a little bit.

"...want me to remind you? What happens when you act like fucking slut!?"

He whispered, you saw his eyes change, for a moment he looked so sad as if he was going to cry... just for a moment and then... it was filled with rage once again. Before you could even think of an answer to his questions you felt the gun move...

*SHOT
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