it all happened in the within this 2 years pandemic.... and i swear it was the worst time ... let it be for the virus or for me being around the toxic people
i had been always bullied for being fat and being an ugly girl.....
there was a girl .. name parnika ...she had long brown hair , fair skin , slim, red lips .... idk her by that but .... she is an angle by personality ... and more than half of the population of teen boys had a crush on her ...
there was a badminton group, group of 9-11 people and ... me and parnika were the only girls and others were boys
ig the incident took place when i was in 7th grade ... we used to got play in an indoor badminton court and as we lived in a campus ... it was kinda secured as the enter and exit of any people was forbidden out of the gate ... so we used to play during those caged days
same rakshabandhan time (not the exact day tho) .... it was a day off for badminton practice ... but everyone ... were restless ..... they wanted to play ... and ... parnika called and said everyone that nothing will happen and to come to play ... i was refusing to go but .... she convinced me ...
.... i was a soft hearten foolish and childish girl ... who thought everyone would be happy if gave rakhi to every boy in our group ...
when everyone met ... i tied the rakhi in everyone hands every one( except few ... cuz i didnt have enough ) was happy but ..... then our coach came fuming towards us and ... gave us the scolding of our lifes ....
now you dont wanna what happened next ..
we all were outside ....
one one the fuck boi said ..
"her rakhi is a misfortune.... throw it away ... thank-god i didn't wear it "
everyone untied it ... and threw it away in the grass near the drains.... i looked at them i was like "why would you do that ??? I... DIDNT .. CALL...YOU GUYS .....!!" I was reALLY reaLLY hurt .....
"it was you and your friends trap... nothing else "
parnika also had given a rakhi to them ... but it was never treated like thAT .... of course why would it be treated like that ....
i was just 11 years old
idk if its just grudge or what but now ... i dont want to be old me ......i just hate my old self ---
dont want to repeat the same mistake
YOU ARE READING
how lonely i am
Humortoday is rakshabandhan ( Indian festivals celebrated to have a brother as a protector ) and being the single child with almost broken contact with the relatives.... just sharing my thoughts of being so leftout
