Stray kids oneshots

seungmin x reader

"what did I do to have someone like you?!?! why did my parents see the good in you?!?! I wish they've picked your sister to marry me instead of you!" the last words that escaped seungmins lips before stroming out to leave

'but I all I did was ask where you were going..' I think to myself replying to seungmins words in private between me and myself

'my sister...huh?...'

'of course he would compare me to my sister! who wouldn't?!?! she is way prettier, skinnier, funnier, smarter than me...'

'maybe they were meant for each other...'

all these thoughts running thru your mind as you where at the floor behind your door in the bathroom with a bloody knife in your hand with cuts in your arms and thighs while some pills that are placed in the counter

I stared at the wall as my thoughts were all blank

'what now?' I ask myself

'now?.... I don't really know...I guess you have to do something to make everyone happy, right y/n?' I reply to my question and asking myself a different one

'right?' I ask myself again

'right.' I reply to my own question as I break into tears again

'its always my sister and never me! why is it never me?!?!' I complain

'because she is better then you' I confront myself as I cry harder

I look at the pills in the counter at take 6 all at once

'thats more like it' I praise myself snd drink some water

'seungmin will most definitely be happy once you die!' I talk to myself once again

'thats what matters' I say smiling while taking another gulp of water

I start to hiss in pain from the cuts and wear some baggy long sleeve jacket and some sweatpants

3 hours later

Im starting to have triple vision and its starting to scare me like crazy

'am I going to die?....' I ask myself

'yes, you will.' I break out the news to myself

'Seungmin will be happy If you die. stop being selfish!'

I dial the only number that

seungmin

I call him about 5 times before I feel like im going to pass out

he finally picks up and says

"what do you want y/n?!?! Im busy!" he says angrily

"I need you home...right now..." I say breathing heavily. "its an emergency seungmin.. please.." I beg him crying

"im busy! y/n call someone else!" he says hanging up the call on me!

I started to cry

"at least he will be happy right?...." I tell myself as I fall to the ground and pass out

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3 weeks later

I finally wake up from the coma I was in and I feel..so bad..

I open my eyes to see a doctor and a nurse staring at me like crazy as an oxygen mask was attached to my face and 2 needles where attached to me

'what happened?' I think to myself looking around