My chubby Love

Chapter 12♡

Jin

I can't believe after everything what happened in the party Jimin expects me to meet Jungkook. What did I ever did to anyone to face this. After reaching home I saw eomma and appa sitting on the couch, probably waiting for me.

"Jinnie... Come sit... How was the party?"

I want to scoff at the question.

"It was nice. I enjoyed the party" Yea Jungkook and everyone enjoyed a lot, seeing me getting humiliated.

"Wait. Why does your suit seems little wet?" It was good that I had kept the window open while coming by cab.  At least my hair and clothes got dry a little because of it. And a big thanks to God that my eyes aren't puffy.

"Uh, that actually someone accidentally spilled water on my coat" I wanna laugh at my lies.

"And now who's gonna wash it? And the coat is crumbled a little! I'm not going to waste money to send it to laundry just because you weren't careful enough to keep your suit neat"

"I will wash and iron it and will keep it in the closet neatly eomma" I gave her a small smile to assure her so that she will atleast stop with her ranting. There is no peace even at home.

"Our Jinnie will do it, so calm down honey" Appa tried to calm her.

"Anyway, I was going to get it done by him.  And don't praise him too much, this is a basic task" Tsk, I don't even want to hear any praise words. Now she's starting it again.

"Eomma appa good night. I'm tired. I will just sleep and wash this suit tomorrow" I just wanna go and sleep now. Tonight was a too much.

I go and quickly change my clothes to my pyjamas. I was lying on my bed. Do I want to cry? Yes of course, im a human afterall. I too have emotions. And just then a tear slips from my eye. My classmates have humiliated and body shamed me many times. Even my parents scold me and tell me to eat little and maintain my weight. Maybe I should diet...I think not because I have an exam in a few days and I don't think I will be able to study on an empty stomach. Food makes me happy. If my stomach is full, I will do every task happily. But if I'm hungry, I don't feel like doing anything. Everyone in my class eats fast foods but no one is fat. Guess what God really hates me.

As I said, I have faced this taunting and body shaming many times before. And it's not like I can do anything to that. The only thing I can do is to avoid them. What should I even explain them? And as if they'll listen to me.. They will surely laugh at my reasons. They'll say I'm such a pathetic person. Except for Jimin of course because he knows my reasons. Never have my parents ever loved or cared for me as a close one. Everyone says that parents are the only one who truly and genuinely care for you, but it never felt that way. I know they just do it because it's their responsibility. They just take it as a responsibility. I'm thankful for that though and I'll return their money once I start earning. Because if they don't wanna love and care for me as their child then I also don't want their help just because I am their responsibility.

The only wish I have is to my parents to love and care for me. And not judge and scold me just because I'm fat. Few days before when I had spend the day with Jungkook, when I kissed him..... My first kiss, it felt so special and I thought I could trust him and his feelings. It felt like finally there is a person who loves and cares for me genuinely. And I love him too. I love him so much.

Maybe Jimin is right. Jungkook might have not done it purposely. But what about the humiliation that I faced? what about everyone who laughed at me? I'm not only angry but also I'm feeling so ashamed and embarrassed. I'm not comfortable to face anyone. I'm not comfortable face or meet Jungkook again. I will never.

At the most, he will apologize to me, but what about me being insulted in front of everyone?

Suddenly my phone rang and my heart started beating fast. Why is he calling me!? Isn't it clear enough that I don't want to talk with him!

Block

I blocked his number and even on Instagram. As soon as exams are over...and the day my results are announced, I will go to my village Gyeonggi-do at my Grandma's house, as I have planned since beginning. I will do business course. And then let's see where it takes me. I just want to go from here. So that I will get some peace.

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Jungkook

Jin is not even picking up my call. There was a ray of hope left, but now that too is gone. I thought Jin will come to meet me, we will clear out the misunderstanding and I'll apologize to him but Jin even refused to meet me. I'm not able to sleep at all. What did I think and what happened! I don't think now Jin will accept my proposal but atleast I have to tell him that whatever happened, it wasn't me behind it! Fifteen years. I loved him for fifteen years...I cared for him, celebrated our first meet anniversary every year and he thinks I will do something like this!

Okay I get that he was angry but he should also think that if my intention was really to make fun of him in front of everyone then why would I call him to meet again? I'm not blaming him... Yea instead I should maybe blame my fate.
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"Come sweetie, let's have breakfast" Eomma said but I don't wanna eat anything. I don't think a single piece of food will go inside my throat until and unless I meet Jin and talk with him.

"No eomma it's okay. I'm already late. I'll just buy a coffee on my way"

She furrows her eyebrows "but-"

"I appreciate your efforts eomma but really,  see I'm late. Bye I need to go now. Love you"

I wasn't able to sleep at all. All I did was crying the whole night while hugging my pillow and looking at all the Jin's pictures that I have. I went in the classroom searching for him. And I saw him sitting near the window seat, looking outside the window.

Phew 🫠😮‍💨😭