our love is like heroin

deep thoughts

you sigh as you sit in the dim lighted pizza parlour, ordering waters and greasy yet amazing pizza from your old friend Paul who has owned the diner since you were 7 and so happens to be near the apartemnt, paul was easygoing and kind, and made the best pizzas and knew the best remedies for sams drunken mind to help him get back on the road, sam was completely wasted, from what was a peaceful lunch became roomates night out to celebrate colbys move in, you remember yourself in the clubs music, its rhythm swaying your body about, you also saw your friend kris and celina at the club, meeting up together as they were visiting from Canada, they were sober and gladly said they would assist you, drunk sam, and sober colby to get to the diner then the apartments.
"so you enjoyed that round of shots y/n?"
"meh, was weak" you laughed, you felt no different, although the club was a cheap club thats been running for 24 years that was well known by sams family, you could go there whenever you felt like it, they treated you and sam like family, even when sam and colby began blowing up on social media, all they got was a congratulations and a round of shots, they didnt care, as long as i or my roomates were happy with what we did, they were proud of us, well them, i wasnt involved with sam, especially not colby, i barely even knew their channel existed except when sam asked to involve me in the videos as apart of the editing crew and camera woman, i didnt care what their job was, just that they are so sweet.
"Kris *hiccup* youu look amaziengsa...-" you heard sam stutter and hiccup, as his eyes drooped, you and kris giggled and colby took pictures, you saw joy light up colbys face at just a small funny moment.
"what?" you heard colby grin, as his eyes were brought to you, unknowingly, you were staring at this work of art
"oh- erm, nothing, thought you had something on your face" you lied
"oh, well so do you" he said, he laughed softly,
"really? where" you said, checking for a mark
"ill get it" he responded gently, you heard his deep voice whisper like a shout, over kris and celinas giggles while they watched celinas recent sleepwalking videos as his hand began caressing your cheek.
"got it." he whispered, smiling, you felt your cheeks redden in his touch, you gulped stayed silent, as colbys eyes stared into yours, you barely knew him yet, he was like someone you could talk to and feel free to open upto.
"you guys ready to head back?" said paul, as kris passed him the money for the food
"yeah, ill grab the car you guys heave sam into the back" you said as colby passed you the car keys
"want us to head back with you? if not paul has agreed to give us a ride to the hotel?"
"feel free, i dont mind and colby wont, and sam, well- well sams on the chair sleeping like a cracked up baby-"
"whay-" sam mumbled
"shush ur okay" celina said, kris grinned, sam looked so stupid drunk
"okiay" sam stuttered, and his eyes drooped back to his light sleep.
colby sighed "welp ill grab him" he said, reaching for his arms.
"we will head to our hotel you already have an intoxicated sam on your hands." kris smiled
"suit yourself" you said, you grinned as i walked out the door unlocking the car, colby stepped outside holding sam up by his arms, lifting him into the back of the car
you sighed a breath of relief as you finally sat back in the car, reaching for the steering wheel as colby sat in the passenger seat.
"finally hes in the car" you muttered as you started the engine
colby laughed, as you began driving towards the apartment, you realised you didnt really know anything about Colby, other than he was from Kansas, like you, like sam, but now you were in California, and you had been for a month, you expected it to be the same, but its weird, different, although, it was a change, and you liked it, and you liked it more because it meant you had to have a fresh start.
"your quiet" colby said, as you exited the car, swiftly going to grab an unconscious sam.
"just weird, i barely even know you and your moving in tomorrow"
"well, where do i start" he said, he sighed calmly as he began walking to the elevator through the doors
"i was a high school freshman when i met sam, we easily became friends in camp, we realised we were made to be friends, when we realised that, and how we made eachother happy, we knew we should make others happy, so we started a channel-" he said
"no, not your socials, or your image, just you" you said, you felt yourself blush lightly as this question, clicking the elevator button on your floor.
"gladly" he said "thats all anyone cares to know, the channel.." he smiled
"not me" you said, you felt your cheeks grow redder each word.
you heard him softly chuckle "well, i was born in kansas, of course, january 2nd 1997, in a small town of overland park, i went to bluevalley highschool, i have a brother called gage, and i make some music"
"good enough" you said, smirking
"wow okay then, what about you?"
"i was born in kansas, 1998, February 14th-"
"on valentines day?" colby said, grinning
"yeah, weird i know"
"no, i find it romantic, so, if you get a boyfriend, you get twice the gifts and affection" he said, softly winking, if it was more possible you felt your cheeks blush more.
"well, i love music, i love olivia rodrigo, the killers, oh i love ' it wasnt me' by shaggy, i love flowers, especially lilys, orchids, veronicas, ooh, i like irises, and i love tv shows and movies, horrors and romances especially, comedys, and dramas, i like novels, horror again, i like romances, historic, esc" you rambled, once you finished talking you looked at colby, you saw him staring at you, he seemed deep in thought, peacefully focusing on every word, but you couldnt help but feel stupid.
"sorry, i was rambling" you laughed embarrassed.
"no its alright, it was fun listening to you talk, especially because i love horrors, romances and music aswell" he said, his deep voice echoed through the elevator as you felt yourself smile in the silence
"whats your top 3 favourite horror movies?" colby asked, smiling, he always seemed happy around you, like you kept his fire of joy burning..
"easy, the exorcist, the conjuring, and scream, classics, but i do love fear street" you said
"fearstreet? really?" he smirked
"really" you smirked back
"well i like cobweb, scream, and fear street aswell" he said softly, he began edging closer to you
"well what about romances?" you said, close enough to him you began to lean your head onto his shoulder
colby blushed softly before he could answer "i like them, but its not really realistic" he said
"what? a christmas love story and confessing in the rain isnt your style?" you teased
"i like that part even if its corny" colby said, smiling gently
"i think its romantic.." you responded, "we have the same type i guess.." you continued, your head lifting from his shoulder as we were face to face.
"yeah, well, your mine..." he said, facing you aswell, barely blinking as you both lean in, closer and closer, staring from eachothers eyes to eachothers lips, beckoning eachother in, you felt your legs weaken and your knees bend and buckle as colbys hand tucks your hair behind your ear out of your face and begins caressing your cheek, his hand gently cupping your face, as your faces became closer and closer, you could feel the butterflys in your stomach, the heat from the fire in heart... until... ding, you jumped, you broke eye contact and stared at the elevator doors, you were interrupted by the elevator, and the doors opened, revealing you and sams, or now you, sams and colbys apartment floor. "ugh, perfect timing.." you thought, annoyed
colby sighed, "guess funs over for now" he said, smiling, still staring at your eyes, his words luring you in, while still holding drunk sam who began hiccuping again, as your hearts fire was instantly extinguished.. but now your mind buzzed with thoughts of his words.. "funs over for now" ... what did he mean? did you talk to much? ..... what did he mean for now? does he like me? you wondered, am i his friend or more?... or just a plaything... ugh your heads pulsing with questions- you cant think straight-
"y/n you coming?" colby called from down the hall by the apartment door, attempting to unlock it
"oh, right yeah coming" you said, reality waking you up.