The Dark Side of Kanan (star wars rebels fan fiction) mini story

White, white, and more white

When I wake up I'm not in my bunk in my cabin in the Ghost. I'm in the Fader flying. I look around and it confirms that I am in the theater I'm in my room which is splashed in color. I smile as I slowly get up trying not to make any noise and I look around Wing Nut my maintenance robot is nowhere to be seen which is a good thing since all he likes to do is the exact opposite of what I say unless it's in a dangerous situation. I also can't find Spark. Spark is my protocol droid able to speak many languages not that I ever need her.

I walk up to the door and it opens and I slowly walks the cockpit. I put my hand in front of me and open the door a little using the force to keep it closed but open. I see Kanan in the pilot seat and the door forces its way open.

" nice try nosey so how did you sleep?" Kanan ask and I blush as I walk to my seat next to him.

" great when did we leave the ghost? I didn't even feel you pick me up." I comment as I look out the window. I still have no idea where we are.

" you were really deep in sleep I don't know why you didn't wake up but you wouldn't I tried to wake you up." he said looking at me like he expects an explanation.

" I don't know why I didn't wake up I had a weird dream though." I say and Kanan and looks at me.

" what happened?" he asks an edge to his voice.

" it was a dream but there was snow on Lothal. Ezra and Zeb were playing snowball fight well Sabine and Hera built to snow man me and you we're just watching them talking." I tell him smiling. " its the best dream I've had in a long time."

" what do you mean?" he asks me and I look away. I was determined not to tell him and I just slipped. what was wrong with me!

" nothing. nothing at all." I say and he put the Fader into autopilot and turns my chair to where I have to look at him.

"Lyra tell me the truth." he says and I look down. He gets out of the seats and kneels in front of me putting his head close to my face.

" they're just nightmares I'm used to them by now there's nothing to worry about I'm fine." I say and his eyes widen in a little more.

" how long has this been going on? Why didn't you tell me? What exactly happens in them?" he asks and I showed him way heading for the door. I hear him coming after me and I feel his hand on my shoulder.

"Kanan..." I say biting my lip. " I know he's dead but I can't forget about him I'm scared and I don't want to worry you I don't but... I'm scared of the Inquisitor you know that I'm afraid he's still alive I know you killed him or he killed himself but I'm still afraid he's alive." I say softly shaking my head. Kanan walks in front of me and lifts my chin. I look down and he pulls me into a hug squeezing me.

" he's gone he can't hurt you just know that and even if he was still alive I wouldn't let him get anywhere near you." Kanan says looks me in the eyes to see if I'm fine and heads back to the pilot seat when he knows I am.

"Go get something to eat we'll be there soon." He says and as I leave a hear Wing Nut grumbling up to wake up Spark.

"Morn Nut." I say as I walk to the kitchen to find food on the counter. When I look at it I see Nut cooking it and a week later me in bed throwing up.

"I'll blast that bucket of bolts into a wormhole for cooking again." I grumble to myself. I leave the plate there and sit at the table and lay down my head.

I jerk awake when I feel the Fader touch ground but let my head fall back onto my arms. I hear the door open and a soft hand lands on my shoulder. I lift my head to see Kanan's worried face level with mine.

"Tired." I say softly.

"I see you didn't eat." He says looking at the counter.

"Wait a minute you cooked that?" I ask looking at the food on the counter.

"Yes who did you think did?" He asks as Wing Nut rolls in.

"I can name one." I say to Kanan looking at Wing Nut. Kanan shakes his head walks over to the counter grabs the plate and sets it in front of me.

"You don't get to see where we are till you eat." He says and I nod my head. Kanan walks over to the counter and starts to make some coffee. I eat as he watches me. Something cold goes over me and I shiver.

"What's wrong?" He asks me as I shiver.

"It's cold I guess I for got to tell Wing Nut to set the thermostat for human condition." I say my voice rises so he can hear me. Somewhere outside the kitchen I hear a collection of beeps and grumbles from Wing Nut. I shake my head and finish eating. I walk to the bathroom and take a shower dry my hair and get dressed.

"So can I see where we are yet?" I ask bouncing in my heals.

"Yes you can see where we are." He says as he throws me a our purple coat. I put it on and when the bay door opens all I see it white. It couldn't be what I thought it was.

"Snow!" I cry out when I get closer I can tell it is and I step out of the Fader and into the snow.