After The Storm.

Chapter 17: Sorry.

⚠️[[Warning: This Chapter Contain's Anxiety Attack And Post Traumatic Disorder. If You Don't Like What You Read Or See,Please,Leave,And Do Not Report. Thank You.]]⚠️

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Just Once,She Want's To Be Somebody's First Choice.

Alejandra Cloud.

I Never Had A Father Figure In My Life.

Wednesday Afternoon,The Young Woman Was Sitting Out In The Backyard Step's,Enjoying The Scenery.

I've Alway's Wanted To Know What Was it Like To Have A Dad,but,i Never Knew Since Mine Wasn't Around. He Was Never There For Me,He Really Wasn't Even There For My Mother at All To Begin With.

The Summer Breeze Felt Humid And Hot,it Didn't Feel Too Good Being Outside,but,She Had A Lot On Her Mind Right Now To Think About.

When i Was Little,i Never Really Asked My Parent's About My Father Or Why i Didn't Have One. I Guess i Didn't Care About That at The Time,My Granny,And Mom We're Good Enough For Me. That's All That Matter's.

Watching The Whole Backyard,There Was Nothing Much To Be Said Since All She Did Was Just Think To Herself,And Being Alone Made Her Think More Clearly About Herself,And Everything Else That Was Troubling Her.

I would See Other Kid's Being Happy With Their Dad's,i Didn't Care. They Looked So Happy And i Was Happy Back When i Was Younger. I Wasn't..Until My Mom Did Drug's,it Made Me Unhappy To See Her End Up Hurting Herself Like That. I Blame My Father For it And Mostly My Mother For Doing Something So Ridiculous,She Never Really Cared. She Never Really Cared About Her Own Children,Either. I Felt Like i Didn't Matter,i Sometime's Feel Like i Don't Belong In My Own Family By How i get Treated...

Looking Down,A Strand Of Hair Fell Down,Causing Her To Place it Behind Her Ear,Sighing A Little Loud To Herself.

I Was Going Through Enough When i Was Little And i Was Going Through Even More Stuff at The Time When i Was School,And Now,Since i'm A Grown Adult,i'm Still Going Through Stuff That i Have To Face On My Own. I Have To End Thing's With Andre,That's Going To Be Hard To Do. I Don't Know What Christopher Is To Me,i Need To Work On Myself First if Something Happen's. I Don't Know What To Do About Christopher,i'm Glad That He's Back In My Life,i'm Scared That He'll Break His Promise Or End Up Leaving Me Again. I Can't Even Face My Best Friend,Either. I Just Found Out That She's Got A Crush On The Guy Who i'm In A Friend's With Benefit's Relationship With. How Can i Have Been So Blinded? I Really Am A Selfish,Terrible,Person. I Guess i Really Am My Mother,After All...

Closing Her Eye's,She Hoped That Everything would Be Fixed,but,The Only Option Was For Her To Do it In Order For Everything To Be Back To Normal.

I Guess Some Thing's Don't Alway's End Up The Way That You Want,huh?

The Young Woman Didn't Know That Someone Was Watching Her As She Kept Quiet To Herself.

I Know My Mother Apologized To Me When She..Did What She Did And She Said That She Was Sorry,But,She Never Really Meant it. To Me,The More She Apologized,The More She Lied. Even When She Apologized,She Did it Again,And Again. You Don't Know How Many Time's i've Heard The Same Excuse,it Was Hard For Me To See My Mother Suffer Right In Front My Childlike,Innocent,Eye's. Doe's She Even Know How Much i Have To Go Through And Suffer By The Past? No,She Doesn't. I Can't Even Sleep In The Dark,it Just Bring's Back Those Memorie's Where i would Be Outside In The Dark...

Opening Her Eye's,She Frowned With Concern,Not Wanting To Remember That.

We All Can't Escape,Nor Forget About The Past. Some People Stay In The Past,While Some Move Forward,Forgetting What Happened To You When You Were Younger. I Can't Escape Or Forget My Past,it Hurt's Me,Scare's Me,Traumatize's Me To The Fact That i Can't Leave That Awful Place That i Once Saw. I Was A Little Girl,i would Was So Young,Why Did That Have To Happen To Me. I Wonder..What Future Me Is Doing? Am i Happy? Is My Life Completely Different Than it Is Now? Will i Ever get My Happy Ending? If i Do,i Can't Wait To See it.