Be My Savior {Z.H. AU}

Chapter 14

I have no idea where that came from. I just, I don't know how to explain it. I just let my heart talk, and that's what it said. There are just so many emotions going through me. Fear. Passion. Ignorance. Love. Worry. Adoration. So many more I can't name. They're all there.

"Wh-what?" he asked. He looked so scared and pale like he just saw a ghost.

"Please don't leave." He swallowed thickly, nodding his head walking back over to the chair. he sat straight up, unrelaxed, and awkward. I patted the mattress next to me. He swallowed thickly unsure, but then got up and slowly sitting down next to me.

"Why'd you sing it? That song?" I asked, but not daring look up from my fingers.

"I found a way to express myself and tell you the truth." he whispered.

"Why? Why did you hide it? Why did you hurt me?" Now I'm starting to choke up.

"I never meant to hurt you," he started, "I just didn't know what to do about how I felt. I told you, my parents are against gays, and I liked you, and I didn't know what else to do. I thought by hurting you I would somehow make my parents proud."

"But you couldn't just tell me, right? You couldn't just say "Niall, I like you, but my parents are homophobic, and I don't know what to do." You know Zayn, some of us have the exact same problem, but we handle it differently. You aren't the only one."

"I know. Lord, don't I know. I didn't know what else to do. I told you this, I don't want to live up to anyone else's expectations anymore. I don't know what to do anymore." He buried his head in his hands.

"Zayn." He looked up.

"Some of us," I licked my lips debating how to tell him, "Some of us, we don't hide it. Who we are. But it's your choice. And when some of us come out, people have different reactions. Acceptance. Dispise. Care. Abuse. Love. Kicked out. There's different one's, and the strongest of people, get the worst of it."

"Which one did you get? A reaction?"

"Which one do you think is worse?"

"Your-your parents-" I cut him off right there.

"There are no parents. There isn't even parent. There's biological dad. That's it. No one else. So don't trip over it."

"Right, sorry. Well, what was your, biological dad's reaction?"

"I told you. The worst one."

"Does he-does he hurt you." He took me tensing up as a good enough answer and engulfed me into a hug.

"I won't let him anymore. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I never meant to hurt you. I didn't know. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry."

"No one knows. Not even Liam. I always have to come up with excuses why we can't go to my house. You can't tell anyone. Please don't tell anyone. Please."

"I won't. I promise I won't tell anyone."

He held me in his arms. He made me feel safe. Secure. Wanted. Cared for. Someone I could trust. For once, I felt loved.

I could feel myself start to finally doze off in his arms, my face hiding in the crook of his neck. The last thing I heard him say was,

"I promise I'll keep you safe. I'm sorry for ever hurting you. I'm here for you now. I'm never leaving."

And with that I dozed off.

~ 2 Hours Later~

I woke up on something soft and snuggled closer to it. Then I heard a slight chuckle and jumped up off the bed and saw Zayn laughing.

"What are you laughing at?"

"You?" He made it sound like more of a question then anything. I sat back on the bed, just to be pulled back into Zayn's arms.

"Zaaaaaaaayn." I whined stretching out the a in Zayns' name.

"Niallllllllllllllll."he mocked strecting out the l in my name.

"Why?" I pouted.

"You might want to stop before I burst from your cuteness."

"What if I don't?" I smirked.

"Then I'll have to make you." Next thing I know his fingers were digging into my sides making me burst into a fit of laughter.

"Zayn, st-stop. Za-zayn." I said in-between laughs.

"Fine, but only if you say, "Zayn is the bestest."

"O-okay. Zayn is th-the best-bestest." when he stopped I had to catch my breath. Catching my breath. Running. My dad. Coming out.

~Flashback~

"GET BACK HERE FAGGOT!" My dad yelled after me. I had just told him I was gay. He didn't take it to well. He punched right after absorbing what I had told him. He then proceeded to throw punches and kicks at me. My blood was everywhere. The floors. The walls. The kitchen counters. The tables. The appliances. The stairs. The front and back door. The ceiling. Everywhere. I was running around the house and backyard to get away from him. When he caught me I had been catching my breath."I got you, you little faggot." he spit in my face. I was trying to desperately catch my breath while he threw punches at my stomach. I had gotten out of his grasp for a slight second and ran down the street for hospital. When I reached the ER I passed out trying to catch my breath.

~End of Flashback~

I had my knees pressed to my chest and my hands over my head. It was my best defense mechanism, it protects all my vital organs and some protection of my head. I had tears coming down my face. I felt someone touch me and I flinched away and said,

"Please, don't hurt me."

"Niall look at me." I know that voice. That's Zayn's voice. He hasn't hurt me or done anything to hurt me. I turned my head the slightest bit to see Zayn crouched next to me with a concerned look on his face. Why is he concerned?

"Niall, babe, it's safe. No one here is going to hurt you. Come here. It's fine. You're safe."

I poked my head up a little more seeing it was just me and Zayn still. I looked at Zayn,he had his arms open. I scampered into his arms trying bury myself into him. His arms wrapped around me as if protecting me.

"Ssh. Niall, it's okay, you're safe. No one can or will hurt you here. I got you. You're safe." he murmured in my ear. I snuggled into him more. I looked up at him,

"I'm sorry, Zayn. I'm so fucked up."

"No Niall, you're perfect. The people who have made you like this are fucked up. I will do everything in my power to help you, save you, and keep you safe. I'm so sorry. No one deserves this. YOU don't deserve this." he said looking into my eyes. I searched his eyes for any hint of lies but found none.

"I believe you." I whispered looking down at my lap. He put his finger under my chin making me look at him.

"What has happened to you?"

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