Living in his shadow (Troyler AU)

17- You've got one week Oakley...

*Warning your face will look like Connors here.. Bc shits gonna go down.. I warned y'all last chap in the A/N....* sorry I guess?..

-Tyler's POV-

Oh god.. Troye's family are back in town and invited me over for dinner tonight.. I'm nervous around him.. Even more so since that day. The day that I nearly died on. He doesn't know it, but uh.. I was slightly conscious the last time he gave me mouth to mouth.. He'll never know.
It gave my lips a slight tingling feeling. But maybe that's just because he was blowing air into my lungs.. Sometimes I like to pretend it was a kiss. I know, I'm strange. But a boy can dream right?

Sighing, I walked downstairs. My mom left for work hours ago. I get pretty lonely when nobody's around.. I miss having Troye over. I miss sleeping next to him every night. I miss waking up next to him every morning. And I really miss his presence. He really doesn't get how lucky he is.. He has a brother. He has parents.. That are married and don't fight or argue with each other. He has it all, unlike me. I was cursed with this thing called 'divorced parents'

my dad left my mom and I when I was 5.. Sometimes I believe it was my fault. I don't remember much about him, but in all of my memories I have about him he was drunk and or angry. I honestly don't remember a time where he wasn't drunk.. He's an asshole and an alcoholic. My mom told me that he would often verbally abuse me.. I'm grateful for not being able to remember that part of my life. Father's Day recently passed me up. I cried alone in the bathroom that night. Luckily, Troye didn't hear me. It would've been so embarrassing to explain my story to him. I trust him and all.. But, it's just.. I don't know.. I just don't think I'm ready to tell him everything yet. All he knows is that my parents divorced when I was very young.

I better get going. I don't wanna leave the twins waiting. I walked out the front door before I could become any more lonely. Speaking of the twins.. I should tell Connor and their parents about me being gay.. It shouldn't be too difficult, considering they raised Troye and he's perfectly okay with it. Man, I love Troye and his family.. They're just so amazing. Like Troye.. I wonder if my news will surprise them. It probably will, I think I was pretty good at hiding my sexuality up until a few months ago.
Hmm. Or maybe I wasn't... I think I may have stared at Troye just a little too much at his birthday party.. Just a little. Oh my god. What if everyone but Troye knows about my crush on him? What will happen if everyone catches on?.. That'll suck. If it happens. Which it won't because I'm sneaky.

I stepped out onto the sidewalk that leads to Troye's house. It's kinda cute how overprotective he's been around me recently. But, it's also a little annoying.. Every time I get near water or boys he gets all crazy. Just the other day we were at the park and a cute boy came up to me, he was asking for directions to the bathroom when Troye walked up to us and told the kid to back off. It's like he doesn't want me to move on.. But it also gives me hope that he'd consider dating me. I don't know it he's straight, gay, bi or pan. I just don't know. And I'll never know until he tells me. Which he may never.. Because straight people don't need to come out..

I felt a hand touch my shoulder. Oh dear god, please be Troye.

"Long time no see. Say, have you recovered from last week yet?" I turned around, looking straight up at Kyle. He's cute.. But I also hate him. I think he may have been the reason I drowned. Fucking jerk.

"What the hell do you want, Kyle?" I spat, quickening my pace.

"You should be nicer to the guy who saved your life." He smirked, lifting his eyebrows suggestively. I don't feel safe.. I want Troye. Where's Troye when I need him?!

"You did nothing! Troye saved my life, not you." I tried walking even faster, but he eventually caught up with me.

"I called the ambulance." He shouted. I looked at him for a second, weighting my options. I need to get the hell outta here.