This Jerk (Jang Geun Suk Fanfic) ON-HOLD

Chapter 16

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As soon as I heard the door close, I hurriedly lied down back to my bed and closed my eyes. I wish I could just stay here forever. I don't want to face him. I'm acting all silly. Why am I being like this?
I heard a light knock on my room door and I heard it slide open.

"I know you're awake. I know you too well to not know." Joongki oppa said. I kept my eyes closed. He does know me too well. This is bad.
"Miyeon-ah, come on. I know you heard everything. Don't think I'm a fool for not thinking you're really sleeping in there." He added. With my eyes still closed, I sighed. I can hear his footsteps nearing me, and he took hold of my arm.
"Come on now, lazy girl. Stand up. I don't want you to end up being a bedridden zombie." He said as he lightly and playfully yanked me up.
But hey! Even though it's not really a fun experience, he managed to make me smile.
"Wow oppa. Can you just let me be?" I said as he finally stood me up. He cupped my face and I looked straight to him.

"And be a zombie? Heck no. You can't just ignore Geunsuk. He'll just come back and back till he gets what he wants. And that's you. It might sound cheesy, yes, but..." he paused for a bit. I can see the pained look on his eyes.
"Dammit, Miyeon! I can see that you love him too. Do you think I'll force you to love me back when clearly I'm not the one for you?" He just told me full of feelings. I've hurt his feelings.
I broke his heart.
He doesn't deserve that.
Tears filled my eyes and slowly fell down my cheeks. He wiped every single one everytime a teardrop slides down my cheek.
"Shouldn't I be the one crying?" Joongki oppa asked me. His eyes were filling up and is turning red a bit, but I can see he's really trying hard to not cry.
"Oppa.. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. You don't deserve this. You don't deserve me. You deserve better. I'm sorry." I confessed and cried even harder.

"I guess you're right. I don't deserve you. I'm too selfish, too jealous, too self-centered, but you're not. I'm not good enough." I shook my head on every single thing he said.

"You're the sweetest, kindest, most generous person I know, and I love you for that."

"But not the love that I'm looking for."
I wanted to nod my head or even respond, but I didn't. I did nothing.
He sighed and sat down beside me.
"I understand. I don't want to force you to love me. I would just be the jerkiest of the jerk." He told me. That made me giggle a bit.

"Not as jerk as Geunsuk. He's the jerkiest of all." I told him. He smiled and patted my head.

"I know that. Haha." We laughed for a moment, then he hugged me.
"You know you can make a difference, right? I know you can tell he likes you and not the other girl. He came to see you. That makes a lot of sense." He explained further. I broke off hugging and looked him in the eyes.

"It doesn't make sense. She came back because of a wedding planned. They probably talked about it already."

"That was probably before he even truly met you. He had a change of heart."

"Well, what a jerk he is."

"I know, I know. But you'll never know unless you listen to him. Hear him out. Make a sense of it all. Talk to him. Because if you don't, I swear I won't treat you out to France next fall." To France? It's been my life's dream going there! Joongki oppa definitely saw the look on my face. So he stood up and pulled me up as well.
"So do it. Come on." He pulled my hair back to a ponytail and smiled at me as he finished.
"You're still my princess." He told me. I wanted to cry into his arms and say sorry. It's my hearts fault. Why can't it just fall inlove with Joongki and let Geunsuk and Yunseo have a happily ever after of themselves? Life is truly strange. I hugged him tightly like I wouldn't be seeing him for a long time.
"I actually told him to wait for you just outside. Go on. He's waiting." Joongki oppa said. This sneaky kid! I chuckled, nodded and finally had the courage to go out of my room and face him outside. I opened the front door just perfect for me to fit in going outside. I didn't want to open it that much. And Joongki oppa was right. He was there waiting for me. His back was leaned back on the brick wall. He was posed like a model. He turned to me, his eyes wide and he backed off out of the wall.

"M-miyeon-ah." He stuttered. I took hold of my elbow and I bit my lip. I was nervous. It felt like it was the first time seeing and talking to him.

"I'll listen." I simply told him. He was going to start talking when I added, "Talk to me as we walk." He stopped, nodded and I walked past him and he silently followed beside me.

"I had no idea she was getting real with the marriage. I liked her even before you came in. She always talked about marriage like there's no more time in the world left. I would always tell her to wait. She doesn't listen apparently. But you got to believe me, Miyeon. You made me realize that Yunseo wasn't meant to be for me. I'm meant for you, and I'm thankful I met you. I'm thankful to mom that she hired you, that you applied, that she made me live with you. You're thd best thing that happened to me this year, and I'm so thankful." I stopped short. We we're only walking for 3 minutes. I turned back to him and we we're 3 feet apart now. I did not know I was walking that fast.

"You better be sure you feel that," I told him. My heart was beating like hell. "Because I feel the same way, and I don't know what to do." I wanted to cry again. It was my first time confessing to someone that I really really like. He smiled at me and walked towards me slowly and hugged me.

"Just be mine and I'll make sure that everything will be fine." He whispered softly in my ears. The sound of comfort and love lingered all over me. He is mine.

"How about Yunseo?" I asked.

"I'll talk to her. Don't worry about it."

"And your mom?"

"She's the reason I fell in love with you, silly. She set us up. Sneaky, sneaky mom." He said playfully. I gasped a bit and laughed. I never knew Mrs. Jang had this side of her.

"Well wow! Why me?"

"She doesn't like Yunseo. She thought you seem to be a very nice girl and you might change me. She noticed the difference and just continued planning on the background. It sounds funny how a mom sets his son and a stranger up together." He explained as he locked his fingers to mine. It was soft and cold. Just what I wanted. I giggled.

"I know. Seems too surreal." I said. Then I remembered something.
"We can't do this." I said in a mode of panic. He had a look of concern on his face as he stared at me.

"Why? What is it?"

"Do you remember the scandal me and Joongki oppa had?" I made him remember. He stared at me for a bit, smiled like someone told him a classic joke and he bowed his head.

"Miyeon-ah~ I get what you mean. And I don't care what happens to us. I don't care of they follow us around like a hungry stray dog. I don't care if they judge me. You're going to be mine and that's all that matters." He said. I don't know if I should smile. I was still worried, but his smile just wiped it away. There was some worry left, but not much.

"So, I'm not yours yet?" I asked.

"Huh? Well, I don't know. Are you?"

"I'm fine with that." I replied.

"Then that's even better for me. Come on. I want a sandwich, then I'll talk to Yunseo." He placed his arm around my shoulders and we continued walking.