Author's P.O.V;
After a very long night, Kinn keep himself awake, and when Porsche fell asleep, he cried himself beside Porsche's sleeping body in fact, he wasn't sleeping, he just pass out, touching those soft cheeks, feeling how his palms burns against his skin... as usual... his feelings for him never changed even until this very day, in fact it gotten even more and more stronger, he still can't believe that he's alive, silently crying... watching and staring at the love of his life, as he stared at Porsche's face, the extreme longing inside him never died, even after feeling him again, the longing was still there, hugging Porsche closer and tighter, like the complete and great fear of thinking Porsche might disappear in any moment was scarring him, scared of his own very thoughts, in that very moment, he vowed himself that no matter what... no matter what happen... he will do his very best to protect Porsche... in order to not lose him again, he vowed to sacrifice his life if it needed, vowing in front of the blooming moon that illuminating the room from the big clear glass window, the only thing who witnessed them. The feeling was overwhelming him to the point where he thought it's starting to choke him so extreme and immoderate as ever, the gaiety and bliss was overweening inside him, tears of joy and unexplainable feeling and the ineffable feelings inside him was mixing all together, with the great longing and emotions, are utterly indescribable too sacred to speak of. Smelling their combined sweet prolific sillage all around the room, hugging Porsche so tight, so tight that it's already squeezing Porsche so tight, nuzzling his nose over Porsche's soft silky and healthy soft hair, a fat clear pearl like tears were leaving his firm closed eyes, he missed this so much, he missed everything, that no word can even describe how much... after almost three years... this is the very first time he felt at home... so warm and welcoming... the boisterous feeling inside him was so powerful, so powerful that it was adding to his possessiveness... the hunkering avidity was overflowing, not to mention he's still crying, recalling Porsche cried earlier saying how much he misses Kinn... missing him whole. The way their body screamed for each other, feeling his heart beating so loud inside his rib cage, he felt as if it's going to jump out from his chest... he missed this... so much, so much that he couldn't explain how much... utterly indescribable..
"I've been marking the calendar everyday... to keep a check for how long I can wait and live without you... Even if things were different... I would've still waited for you..." Kinn said, voice cracking, silently staring at Porsche's face with eyes filled with so much limerence and love... Holding and hugging Porsche like it'll be their first and last... throughout the night, Kinn never let go off him... feeling himself falling asleep peacefully after such a long time... heart was soft as clouds as it beating so loud while he's holding him close to him, so close that there's no more space between their body... Before sleeping, he thanked the god more than five times, who brought him back again... bringing Porsche again pulling them together again... he kissed those red lips again, before snuggling more onto Porsche... wishing them both a good night...
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Time check, 7:00 am
Kinn woke up without Porsche beside him waking up as soon as he felt something's missing, feeling the other side of the bed empty made him instantly open his sleepy eyes like it's about to pop out from his eye hole. With a sudden energy inside him even though he still felt sleepy just a second ago, his sleepiness suddenly disappeared like it never existed, feeling all alarmed and scared, he started calling Porsche's name, in which his voice was filled with worry and fear, he saw a short pants and a white loose shirt that neatly folded right beside him on the nightstand, he immediately changed not bothering how he look, he quickly left the room with bare foot calling Porsche's name like he's about to die. Running down the stairs with messy hair and eyes beaming with big perfect rounded tears.
