Life and Pain

13

You made and Luther were basking in the child's glory as you basked in its glory. You held Aster as you peel back his sack the fluid running down your uniform. You stay monotone though you secretly wanted to hug the child. You give him the name Aster Sky in the name of your mother, and you made it clear to the clan his root breaking from his head. Luther welcomes his son into the world with a rub of ash across his forehead. You were promised the first night of sleep with him due to being his mother and Aloha. You see the dark veins spread from his face you speaking words of fortune for them. You, needing to get to class, we're welcomed by Luther taking the baby from your grasp. You used your right hand glowing green matching the child seeing his chest bright with it.

As you make your way to Snapes room, you tell yourself you should be happy. Secretly, you were just exhausted. You get the work done as you were unrecognizable to Snape. You feel his hand on your shoulder at one point you softening at his touch. He feels this as he tells you to focus. He tried to go into your mind, but it fails once again. You ponder life no matter what finding yourself a soldier. You either fought with your parents, or you fought with the cult. You think about who needed you more pressing your nails into your skin. The children haunt you while at the same time keeping you sane. Professor Snape ask to see you after to class frowning at your pitiful nature. You just nod waiting for the others to filter out.

" What is wrong? When's the last time you ate?"

" Professor Snape-"

" You're breaking yourself. Let me take you to the Great Hall. I'm sure they have left overs."

" I'm perfectly fine."

" You're lying.... Stop. You're not getting better."

He takes you by the arm leading you to the Great Hall. You blinked at the cake not understanding until you heard your mother along with others say happy birthday. You realize what day it was you begin laughing. You hate your child on your birthday and didn't even realize it. Your mother frowns thinking you're laughing at the day you were born. You asked why she was there for she hasn't always been there for birthdays. You were surprise at your spitefulness.

" Hoping to see my daughter joyful. Are you okay?"

" S-Sorry. Just not feeling up to this."

" We've gotten you a present.... It'll make you happy, and it's a reward for bringing up your grades."

You smile meekly showing your kind side the first in a while. You decide to sit apologizing for your behavior. Your mother smiles as she lights the candles. You think about the others, and what they would think of this as they sing happy birthday. You look into your mothers eyes faultering at her kindness. You're going to end this, right? How? What am I doing? What's my life right now? You almost feel like a villian honestly wanting to leave and go back to your Aster having name him after a great woman just to be lying to her face. Snape snaps you out of your thoughts.

" Whose Aster?"

Your eyes flared red at him reading your mind. Your mother eyes flashed at wonderment wondering why you would think of someone at the moment. Your father places a hand on your shoulder questioning who Aster was, and you send a glance at your mother mouthing seeder. She puts a hand to her mouth understanding. Of course she never told him. You can read it from her expression. She told Zues she would explain your brother Hermès telling you to sit down and blow out some candles. You look back at Professor Snape seeing the hurt in his eyes. Your gaze soften, and you can't help but notice he wasn't doing okay either. You smile as he sits near for a moment, and for a second under the candle light, there was... You don't know, but it brought the old you back your mother watching the color return to your face. Her gaze flare lines exchanging glances with Zues at the faint love between you two it making since to Asteria. She could tell how much the professor cared, but she assumed it was from a teacher's perspective. Zue squeezes your shoulder bringing you back to your senses. He send a look like no other at the back of Snape's head. Hermès sends a questionable look towards his father thinking surely he had made a mistake. Asteria thinks back to the cluster of Amythest and Citrine on his desk since the energy waning in your right hand seeing it as a gift. She asks Snape for some family time the teacher agreeing as you left. You say goodbye as your family watches him leave. Apollo looks down at you taking a seat.

" Are you comfortable with him?"

" Yea. Why?"

" Zues, I'm letting you know she has a seeder."

" No, she doesn't. My daughter would of told me, right?"

" I was expecting mom to tell you."

" Way to leave me high and dry. Gaia was planning to visit you today, and I think she'll have something to say about that hand. What have you been doing?"

" Just a lot of magic."

" Unnecessary magic I feel like. Would you care to explain?"

" Just school stuff."

" You know, being secretive doesn't get you no where."

Apollo was surprising how you are dodging Asteria usually being completely honest with your mother. He ruffles your hair... slowly taking it back.

" I didn't know they use this type of magic here, but someone has been love hexing you."

" It's a girl."

Zues mumbles a few words suddenly hearing a scream behind the wooden door. Your family rises as you recognize it as Lavender. She just doesn't learn when to quit, does she? You jump up saying you'll take care of it Hermès not understanding your body language as if playing along with this. You make your way to the door to see her frozen there in pain. You ask to your father to let her go calling it a simple crush.

" There's nothing simple as that. I'm really worried about your thinking now Y/n. You don't let these kind of things go-"

" I'm fine dad... really."

You can't help how that came out as a cry for help. Apollo asks you to come over stripping the magic away from your hair secretly plucking a strain Lavender watching as he burns it with his abilities.

" Stop making excuses for her. If you're going to be alpha, then act like it. Don't be pitiful when you make a mistake. Own up to it. Be less of a mother and be more of a warrior. This is a girl who held back  and still won during a war. This is a girl who killed Lycan Voldemort. This girl is a God."

" I got it."

" You got it what? Huh?"

" I. Got. It."

" And that's an Alpha. Get up on your feet."

" You know, it's something ain't it. Hair can hold up to a life time of memories. You never know which one you're going to bring up. Y/n, tell us the truth."

You look at them your eyes dead but hurt. How do you tell them you betrayed them? Joined the side that faught with the Titans. You truly wanted to change this cult having grown attached to it, but could you possibly forgive them of their sins? Could you possible change their ways?

" Fine. Then she will."

Lavender fell to the ground gasping for air.

" I... I've joined a cult."

You decide fo bury yourself again knowing you can fix this somehow. Her eyes looks as if they were wanting to rip you a part. You send her pleading eyes begging her to go along. They don't have to know about the whole truth though it pulled at your heart. If you make it appear small, then maybe it could be dismissed.

" And you hide it why? We're not against these things as long as your careful."

" I know. It's just... a secret, you know? She's seriously just an obsessed girl. Just let her go, and I'll tell the leader."

You could tell she wanted to laugh having might actually getting out of this.

" We will considering she's a child. Don't hurt our child again."

" Yes mam. I'm sorry."

Your mother smiles at you her along with Zues boys glad for some truth. As you look at your father though, you could see he didn't believe your intentions.