I Never Told You.

Its Him.

Must say, New York is beautiful. The buildings, the people. Wow. Everyone just seems so happy and busy in their lives. You know, since I was young, it had been a dream to come and live here. However, that dream just vanished after IT happened. I mean HE loved coming here often and I regret...

"Arohi, darling, look at the cushions, aren't they so comfy-looking and lovely.", Mom said excitedly.

"No mom, why would you want pink cushions. They wouldn't even match with the furniture."

"No Arohi, they would actually look nice. It would give a different ambiance to the room."

"Mom, trust me! I would no better."

"But, Arohi"

"Mom! You know what you think you're always right. Whether it be this or something else. I don't really care. Can we just hurry up, please. I have stuff to do.", I clearly lied. And trust me, I didn't mean to yell at my mom like that. But, I truly feel her stupidity brought this whole situation this far.

"Why are you acting like this, Arohi? It has been weeks since I've been dealing with your attitude. Please, tell me if there is something going on, I'm your mother."

There is something going on mom, and I want to tell you. But, I can't.

"Mom, we're in the middle of a store, I don't want to listen to your lecture here.", I sigh loudly.

"What?! My lecture. I am saying this for your benefit. Arohi!", Mom said on the verge of shedding a tear.

"You know what, fine! I'm sorry, lets just finishing shopping then go home.", I tried to divert the conversation.

"Look Arohi, I think you should head home, right now. I'll come after I'm done shopping"

"Mom, relax"

"Please leave", Mom said quietly.

You know what. Fine, I'll leave.

I know, I'm acting rude to my mom. But, I can't help it. I have this secret inside me, that I feel if I let it out, my family will be destroyed. Though, by keeping it inside me, I fear I might get destroyed slowly. My heart feels so overwhelmed and it just seems impossible nowadays to be happy.

While, opening the door to leave, I admire the city's scenery. I feel like if I blend in with my surroundings, no one will notice me. I don't really want to be noticed. At times, I feel like I'm becoming into such a negative person. I even question myself, "What if I remain like this for the rest of my life?"

"Ouch!", I screamed.

"Whoops, I'm so sorry. I was on my phone. Oh no, the coffee spilt all over you. I'm very sorry. I'll help you clean it up", said this guy, holding a tray with 4 Starbucks' coffees in one hand.

 Who did this man think he was? Could he not pay attention while walking, like ugh! Now, I need to find a store to clean myself up.

Ah! There's the Starbucks this man just come out of.  I'll just go in there.

"Excuse me! Are you ignoring me? I can help you out." said the guy.

I ignored him and left. Sorry, but I don't really have the time to waste just to talk to this guy. I can help myself out. I don't need anyone's help or pity.

I open the Starbucks door and look for the washroom. Oh, there it is.

"Oh my god.", I said tiredly. He spilt so much coffee all over me. Now, I probably need to go home and clean up. But, I just want to stay away from going home. I really want to stay away from everyone right now.

I mean this whole situation is giving me so much to stress about and its just becoming unbearable.

"\Why? Why is this happening to me? Oh God! I don't think I can handle this!", I yell slightly, and begin sobbing.

I look at the mirror and assess myself. Is this even me? What happened? The fun, bright, good girl Arohi has turned into a mess.

Suddenly, I hear someone knock on the door and quickly stop crying. I wash my face and dry it with a tissue.

"I'm so sorry. I didn't know you would react this way to the whole situation. I just never knew that would happen. If I could take back time, I promise that wouldn't have happened.", said the guy outside.

"What? Who are you? and what situation?", I said while hiccupping and leaning against the washroom door.

What if it is him? Should I open the door? Will he try to persuade me into considering the whole situation. No, I can't betray my family. But, what should I do?

I feel my heart beating rapidly and I'm starting to fear if he could hear it too.

Ok, its fine. I'm just going to open the door and confront him once and for all. I slowly turn the knob of the door and begin to push the door open.

When I see...