mercy ✩ Scaramouche x Reader

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I hate my life.

What the fuck was I THINKING. Og my gods. Nono I  can do this..I think. Oh mygo. someone DEFINETLY POSSED ME

I'm fucking panicking cna uou tell?? WHYD I SAY THAT UGH..and whyd I say it like that it was so cringe I could fucking die right now.
Like. Imagine not meeting your ex for YEARs then they say all that shit. SERIOSYSLY I NEED HE-

"excuse me?? earth to scaramouche? hello?" kazuha asked in a soft and concerned voice. (ngh)

"oh um hey." I looked up at him, seeing his concerned face really made me question so many things about myself as i tried to sound ..uh not nervous? I don't know okay stop.

"are you alright? do you need more rest? we have to keep practicing yknow? it's 2 more days till-"
"yes, yes I know. I'm fine thanks," I said standing up and handing a hand to kazuha, helping him stand up. "just thinking alot."
"I see, about what?" the white haired boy asked curiously, "it's nothing important. chill."
"well, it might be considering it's bothering you. well anyway, let's continue alright? tell me if you want to later." he kindly gestured me to my position as he went to play the song. seriously what'd I do to deserve such a..nice and kind friend. seriously he's so..?! if I wasn't missing yn right now, I'd probably kiss him. not that I miss her or anything haha why would I that's so stu-

I panicked as the song started playing and couldn't move so we had to redo it.

"dude I swear to fucking archons if you're thinking about your little girlfriend I'm gonna kill you. focus on the performance you douchbag! gosh." Xiao stared at me as I chuckled at his response. it was kinda funny, but a bit embarrassing..em..ok. 🤓

After a few hours we finally finished. I said my goodbyes as i dialed melodies number.
(his manager iw 🤔)

"hello?" as she greeted me, i quickly took my bag and went to our room.
"mels can i go out today? we just finished practice and i wanted to walk around." i asked while walking around,
"ah. em ill go ask jean but i think its fine. ill send in 4 guards for ya'! please stay safe."
"great. thanks" at this point, i was already at the bathroom checking the water before i dipped in.
*end call*

eh.. okay. you can kinda tell were not close. theres nothing wrong with it, ofcourse! just a bit awkward when talking. why didnt they give me a male manager? ugh. whatever.

not gonna lie, talking to myself feels amazing. usually i dont talk to people but in my head i am saying a billion words at the same time. its so fun but kinda annoying. its like having 302 yns in your he- wait yn. oh my god.
this is exactly why i hate talking to myself. embarassment is key and my head is the keyhole.
this also reminded me of when i took a bath for like 2hours because i accidentally slept. venti said i looked like a prune. grape. A FUCKING RAISIN.
(whoever comitid this ill buy u nitro (i wont)

it was not funny at ALL.

anyways. im stil kinda embarassed. i wonder what she thought about it? shes definetly secretly talking smack about me. for sure..or maybe shes giggling i dont know.. probably not. i mean- if i was her and my shit ex went up to me and said 'oh hey ya lets be friends again after i dumped u and said sht things' yeah. i would definetly not giggle. i said to myself as i too started chuckling to myself. sometimes i think im crazy. i was once crazy..

a/n
Ok which one do u guys use
  1.   (ill buy u nitro (i wont))
  2.   (ill buy u nitro (i wont)
BC IM SO CONFUSED like WICH ONE DO USE like the 1st one fels right bc its ending both but 2nd one looks better 😭