𝐍𝐎𝐂𝐎 𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐓𝐒

𝟑 - 𝐋𝐞𝐭 𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐁𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐤 𝐌𝐲 𝐇𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐀𝐠𝐚𝐢𝐧 - 𝐒𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐟𝐢𝐜

[ NOTE : I JUST STARTED RR SO I KNOW NOTHING ABOUT EMMA! I JUST KNOW NEMMA EXISTS ]

Feeling kind of sick tonight,
All I've had is coffee and leftover pie,
It's no wonder why

          Cody stared at his ceiling as his stomach churned, giving him a sickly feeling. Why couldn't he sleep? It's probably his,
' dinner, ' because all he had was coffee and leftover pie from last night's desert. Or was it something else bothering him?

Ooh, still you take up all my mind,
I don't even think you care like I do,
I should stop, heaven knows I've tried..

Cody found another reason why he couldn't sleep : Noah. Noah Sterecra has been Cody's best friend and crush ever since Total Drama Island ended. His sarcasm and humor always made him feel better. The nickname Noah gave him, ' gap, ' made Cody feel better about his cursed teeth for some reason.

But then everything fell apart when Noah and Owen became a team in the so called, ' Ridonculous Race. ' Noah started dating another girl, Emma, he supposes.

Ever since Noah and Emma became a couple, they've always had dates, Noah didn't have time for Cody and he was barely in their apartment anymore.

Of course tonight, Noah isn't here to take care of Cody. Cody texted him that he wasn't feeling well, and Noah just responded with a, ' I'll come home soon, ' but he never did. Does he even care anymore..? Cody thought to himself. He should just stop trying to talk to Noah again, it's worthless at this point.

One day, I will stop falling in love with you..

Cody looked at Noah and Emma from across the cafe, laughing and giggling as they sipped each other's coffee. Cody sighed and drank his own coffee. Of course the couple had a date the same cafe Cody always goes to.

Every day, for no reason, Cody's love for Noah grows stronger even though it should be growing weaker.

Cody felt his eyes get watery as he saw Noah kiss Emma.

Someday, someone will like me like I like you..

Cody his his face in his sweater sleeve, his tears making it wet. No one really liked Cody as a child, and even now. Sure he had his friends from TDI, but Noah makes him feel accepted, safe, protected.

Cody wishes he can take away the ugly gap in his teeth, grow taller, be less geeky, have better grades! Heck, he could go on and on about what he wants to change about himself.

He just wishes someone can like him as much as he does to Noah.

Until then, I'll drink my coffee,
Eat my pie, pretend that we are more than friends,
And of course I'll let you break my heart again..

Cody took another sip of his coffee and a bite of his pie, watching Noah and Emma with red eyes. For some reason, they've been going to the cafe every morning now. Noah must've been the one to recommended it, since he always takes Cody, or at least used to.

Cody thought and dreamt about what it would be like if Noah got with him instead. He pretended that him and Noah were more than just, ' best friends. '

But of course when he tries to do that, Noah ends up breaking his heart again.

I'm just try understand,
What I am to you, more than songs we've exchanged, midnight calls, sunset views,

Cody thought back to the times where his friendship with Noah was at its best. Ah, of course, after TDI.

He remembers always exchanging Spotify playlists to see if the other had good taste in music ; the funny thing was that they both had Laufey on their playlist.

He remembers calling Noah at the middle of the night before they moved in together, he remembers going out to the balcony and watching the sunset while listening to Noah read his favorite book.

Wouldn't that mean that Cody means more to Noah than he thinks?

Promise I don't mean to cry,
But I get overwhelmed and confused, if only you knew,
What I felt like..

Why is Cody crying? It's just a crush, nothing more.. right?

He didn't mean to, really. He was just so confused as to why Noah got with Emma instead of him. Sometimes he wishes he could just take Noah from Emma and kiss him.

Oh, if only he knew what he felt like.

One day, I will stop falling in love with you..

Cody looked at a picture of him and Noah with watering eyes. Why did he have to fall in love with a man?

Someday, someone will like me like I like you..

Cody looked at Noah's face intensely, noticing details he never did before. When will someone like Cody as he does to Noah? What does he need to do to feel loved?

Until then, I'll drink my coffee,
Eat my pie, pretend that we are more than friends,
And of course I'll let you break my heart again..

Cody stuffed his coffee and pie in his mouth, choking on his tears. He was thinking about Noah, what do you expect?

Someday, one day,
I will stop falling in love with you,
Until I do,
I'll be thinking of you,
Let you break my heart, again..

Cody will never stop thinking of Noah. Never, until he's over him, which is never.

But if he does, he'll get hurt again, wouldn't he? Oh well, it'll be worth it though.

" I'd let you break my heart if it's to think of you, " Cody whispered, staring at Noah and Emma kiss.

Should I make a part 2? Idk
This isn't the RR angst I was talking abt last time btw

Laufey - Let You Break My Heart