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Ch. 3: Memory.

I kept wondering where Jaxon was taking me. Yeah, we've been on a hellla lot of dates but he's never kept where we were going a secret.

"Jaxon, if you're taking me to some abandoned shitty werehouse to kill me and end my life secretly, you're screwed." I said, trying to put on my best look of being serious.

"Who said I had to kill you?" he replied, winking at the end.

As Jaxon slowed down indicating that we were near the destination, I peered out the window. My jaw automatically dropped. The view was so fucking gorgeous.

"Jaxon....whe...where the hell are we!?" I asked.

"Why...you don't like it?" Jaxon said with a worried look on his face.

"No.....I love it." I said, lightly kissing him on the cheek.

I tried my best to be flirty but of course Jaxon always had to ruin it by laughing. If only he was smart enough to just go with it to make me happy.

Jaxon got out of the car and opened it for me, bowing as if he was a gentlemen. Of course at heart though, he would always be an immature boy. Not helping but to laugh, I took his hand and got out. I kinda even wished I dressed nicer than I have.

Hand in hand, Jaxon took me along towards the sparkling ocean. No one was there besides us. The beach has never been my favorite since it was the reason how my father died many years ago, but of course Jaxon didn't know that. No one knew that besides Hunter. He was there with me when it happened around 4 years ago. After that, my whole family had lost all contact with my dads side of the family. They thought his death had been all my fault. They never seemed to like my mom either way, for she was always so sweet to them but she was never able to trust anyone including her own husband. I grew up the same way, but I had friends who accepted that I just wasn't very open. On the other hand, many find my mom mysterious and awkward because she would never speak about herself.

"Krystal? Did you hear a word I said?"

Jaxon asked, as I snapped back into reality. I stared at him, for a second picturing Hunter. Wait what? Hunter? Oh god, my mind must be playing tricks on me. Theres's no way I have feelings for Hunter. He's my best friend and I love Jaxon way too much for that.

"Sorry, I blanked out. The scene is just so beautiful, thank you Jaxon for everything." I replied, pecking him on the lips to make him speechless.

I lied. I didn't actually want to be there. I knew I would continuously have those moments where I black out, thinking about my dad. Every since the day he died, I've been recieving help and counseling to control myself from having flashbacks of my life. It still happens, just a lot less than usual. To be honest actually, I just want to be somewhere silent. A silent place where I can vent out all my feelings and tell someone everything I went through. I just want to be able to hug someone tightly and have them just listen and tell me everything's alright. I just wan--

"Krystal...Baby whats wrong? I can tell you're thinking too hard about something by the look in your eyes."

I quickly turned around facing him, not making eye contact. Without hesitation I buried my face in Jaxon's chest as he wrapped his arms around me bringing me in closer. I began to cry silently, my tears quickly drying against Jaxon's sweater.

"Eveyrthing's alright. Just close your eyes and imagine as if your dad is your guardian angel, watching over us right now." Jaxon spoke softly in my ear, as he started rubbing my back slowly to calm me down.

I was scared about what I was going to say next.

"Jaxon...I...I've never told you this. My dad died because he...he drowned in a high-tide at a beach...while trying to save...save me." I hiccuped here and there causing me to repeat my words. I continued to speak. "Since then, no one has taken me to a beach and...." I couldn't take it anymore. Once again, I broke out crying.

Jaxon pulled me in, not saying a single word. The look on his face made it seem as if he were sad, but moreso felt bad for bringing me to a place that left so many scars in my heart yet which he thought was romantic.

"Oh Krystal....I love you, you know that? You're a strong girl. My strong girl. And the more you face this memory and pain, the more you're able to overcome it. And now you have me to overcome it with." Jaxon whispered in my ear, making each word sound more reassuring than the last.

And this was my problem. Jaxon's ways were to attack my fear and bring me closer to the place I most fear, and Hunter was the type to protect me from my fear. He would do anything to keep me a safe distance from a beach and water, allowing me to not black-out from memories. Both of them intended to do what they thought was best for me, but in reality niether of them knew that what would help me most is to always have both of them on my side.

I wish I had Hunter with me right now.

I wish Hunter and Jaxon were friends.

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A/N: LOL so this chapter kinda failed a bit. More like the whole story failed a bit. Sorry for the late update, my time was consumed by stufff haha. c;

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Stupid cliffhanger question: WHAT ON EARTH WILL HAPPEN NEXT? o;

answer: idkeitherlol.

yeah so happy spring break you lovely lucky charms kbye.♥

p.s. hahahhaaha i may have lied a lill' when i said longer chapters.