Untold Story By Both The Sides

wondering

Sarthi's pov:

From the day I saw him for the first time I knew he's not just some ordinary guy for me..
I said softly while pressing my upper and lower lips together...
I layed down on my bed like that wondering how someone can feel like a safe place even when silence screams.. sometimes I wonder if time always stops whenever he is around me cause even if we don't talk or he may never want to be with someone like me still I have some hopes hidden in the corner of my heart that he might change his mind..'oh this was quite poetic' I whispered to myself.. I was lost in all these thoughts of my ultimate unforgettable crush 'VEDANT KUMAR TIWARI' the guy I'm crushing on since I was in grade sixth (6th)..My few friends know about how clingy I can be when it comes to him..We were in same school and now I'm joining the same college as him,I should never let stop my delulu from being trulu cause for me delusional is the only solution..I still crush so madly on him and I want to him to like me too,well even if he will not like me as girlfriend or something I want to be friends with him and be someone he can trust and share things with but the problem is that he rarely talk to any girl and I'm not confidence enough to just go and ask him if he wants to be my friend, That sounds weird if I'll just go to him and ask him to be friend out of nowhere he must get uncomfortable or might guess that I do have a crush on him so I am ofcourse not going to ask him anything out of blue.. I'll just wait for the right time and leave everything in hands of god..he used to give me mix signals in grade seventh soo..ughh I am so delulu,clingy, stupid, idiot why do I even had the thought that he liked me in seventh grade just cause he looked in my direction and made a eye contact with me because I was staring into him..gosh those little interactions I had with him in school are so embarassing still whenever I think about those moments I forgot about butterflies and it feels like I got wings to fly..I was thinking about all these when I got a call from my friend Atharav..My number one supporter and delulu feeder when it comes to Vedant..I met Atharav in 5th grade when I made my first ever Insta account? yes I didn't tell my parents that I have Instagram and I'm also making friends online..well he one of those friends and he's still with me and guess what he's joining my college,I'm excited for some reason yeah!
he better give me some ideas about how to get Vedant's attention or I'll ask him to be Vedant's friend and tell me things about him that's absolutely a good idea for me i guess...I picked up his call
'Hello,Sarthi?'
'Ji haa'
'Vedant Jija ji kaise h?'
'Bohot handsome and out of my league'
'Arey chup,He must be in love with you'
'I don't think so'
'Kuch bhi ho sakta,aaisa kyu bol rahi h'
'nhi malum yaar'
'ab kal dekhna Vedant Jija ji ko,tujhe dekh kar ek smile toh rahegi hi sakal per'
'Aarey yaar buss kar fake hopes na de'
'Real h'
'okay okay'
'Aacha sun,I called you kyuki tujhe yaad toh h na kal pehla din h College ka?'
'Haa bhai sab yaad,no worries'
'Toh fir sahi h,chal bye kal milte h abhi mujhe bahar jaana h'
'haa haa sure,bye'
Hmm..So this was Atharav, He's a littrally sweetheart nevermind..I have to choose my clothes and all for tommorow after all Vedant will be there..I wish that he may not be in same class as mine please diffrent section or else I'll get so distracted that I can't focus on anything else expect him but at the same time I want him to be in same class as mine so I'd get some chances to get close to him I don't know what I'm gonna do but I wish everything will go smooth and nice