What If I Was Gay? (Jonnor)

Prologue

* Jude's POV *
People always say they hate parents. At least your still with them. I've been to 6 different families since I was little. My sister, Callie and I have never been separated. She made sure about that when the social worker told us about our mothers death. One night are dad decided to take is out and it turns out her was drunk and we got into an accident. Not only did he kill our mom but also the people in the other car. Now me and my sister Callie are with The Fosters. Our moms Stef & Lena are amazing moms and really care about us. They also have 3 other kids. My new sister Mariana and brothers, Brandon and Jesus. With this new family I have a new school, Anchor Beach. I had so trouble making friends until I met Connor. We instantly became friends. As are friendship bloomed I started to lean towards Connor being there for me. He alway stood up for me against bullies. Then we had our seventh grade camping trip, Connor and I had to share a tent together. We talked for awhile then he touched me on the knee. I thought he was just being supportive. Until I found myself arms around his neck and Us kissing. We did really talk about it after it happened. But i knew I had feeling for him. Then when we got back to school Maddie asked Connor out on a date and he said yes which kinda made me upset and hurt. I mean he knew how I felt about him but I just played along like nothing was wrong. But when Taylor asked me out on a double date with Maddie and Connor and I said yes just to spend time with Connor

*Connor's POV *
I remember the day jude showed up to school. He looked like the kind of kid that didn't have very many friends. I used to be that way. I remember how worried I was coming to anchor beach with the high school kids mixed in with us. When class was over and we had lunch, I saw Jude siting at the table by himself. I sat down next to him and we instantly became friend. We did all the things close friends did we hung out at each other's house and we even did are project together. But when we had our seventh grade camping trip I didn't really know what came over me that night but I kissed Jude. I can't believe it did. I'm not sure if I like him. I'm not even that I'm straight. But I just act like I am. I'm not going to lie. I like Jude. But even if I did come out as gay I couldn't let my father know. He already thinks Jude is gay and I see the hard time he gives him. My dad would kill me if I told him I was gay.