Running.
Panting.
Exhausted.
I feel exhausted.
I left her room. She couldn't see me in that state. I wanted to destroy everything.
How could he do that. She lost everything. Because of us? Because of me? Because I said the wrong words...
She lost everything because of me.
The pain is too much.
I don't think I would ever be able to forgive myself.
I destroyed her life.
I feel like the worst thing on earth.
She didn't deserve that. She was so pretty and fragile. I would just like to hold her. To glue all the pieces together. Give her back her life. Poor human...
This time, I was more careful and did not approach the border of the pack. I stayed away and started to punch the tree in front of me.
I hit it until my hands couldn't bear the pain. There was blood everywhere.
I growled. I howled. Everything was so loud.
Anger is always a difficult emotion for me. If it could take over me, I felt like nothing in the world could calm me down.
"Hey there, calm down, boy. We can regenerate faster, but there is no need to hurt our human self." Typhoon sounded like he was mocking me. But I understood that humor was his coping mechanism.
I am pretty good at analyzing things. Where I fail is with the coping stage.
"I feel like the worst person on Earth. She lost everything. Because of me... I am responsible for her life being upside-down. It's totally unfair."
Without noticing, I felt tears streaming down my cheeks. Not one tear, no. I actually felt like a whole river was streaming down my face. I felt uncomfortable. What do I do with tears? I understand what to do with anger. But with tears? I feel lost.
I started walking back to the hospital while Typhoon and I were talking about facts.
"You do know it is unfair to you. You shouldn't blame yourself. I get that it is hard to do. But we were not driving the car. Neither did you crash in her car."
Typhoon was always so rationnal. I had him in my head for longer than I could remember. Normally, people feel their wolves around 14-16 years old. But I remember my mom telling me that even when I slept in my crib, she could hear me talk with my wolf.
I always felt gratitude for his rational side. He kept me out of problems way too many times.
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Take My Breath Away
Loup-garouAs she is lying in bed for a forced time, Eleonor is left with her own thoughts. She had everything. From the perfect boyfriend to the bright future ahead. She lost it all. Meanwhile, Lorenzo is a shy guy with anger issues. It's hard to control hi...
