LOVER [EN- 성훈]

42 ; diary

[Sunghoon's POV]

"Go in first." I said, letting the girl go into her house first, before I go to my own dorm.

"You go first." She said, not wanting to go in.

"If you don't go in, I will kiss you." I said, threathening her, I thought that she will be afraid. But, instead, she peck her lips to my cheek.

"I will go in now." She smile, before leaving me speechless in front of her house. She really is something.

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[Jay's POV]

Sunghoon just come back home, he must be back from his date with his lover.

"You just came?" I ask the guy.

"Yeah, am I that late?" He said, looking to the surrounding, there's no sign of life, all the people in this house already gone to bed.

"How was your date?" I ask.

"Everything went smoothly, why do you ask?" He said.

"Nothing. It's good that your date went smoothly like you planned. Go change, then eat the meal that I prepared." I said to him.

I was like a mother figure to all of Enhypen members. I cook for them, and treat them like my own kid.

"Jay, you okay? You seem like you're having a hard time." He noticed that I was tired.

"I'm okay. Just that, I don't know what to do." I confessed.

I told him everything about my feelings for Suna. He didn't get angry at me, and just listen to all of my story attentively. I also told him about what Seungho said before this, about the 'obsession'.

"You think that your affection towards Suna is obsession?" Sunghoon asked.

"Yeah, am I wrong?" I ask him back.

"The way you describe your feelings toward Suna, make me think that you're sincere. All of the things that you've done to Suna, I am sure she is thankful for your help."

"Don't mistaken your affection, with obsession just because someone told you that it was that. He never see how you act with her on his own eyes, but I do. So, I have the right to judge you."

"Your love for her is sincere. I'm not telling you this because I want you to court her, but I'm telling you this so that you can understand yourself too, Jay. You only think about others, you're so selfless."

"If you want to confess your feeling to Suna, just do it Jay. I will be jealous, but you're still my friend. I won't consider you as my rival." His words is so dear to me.

How am I supposed to tell her that I love her, knowing how much trust you put in me. If I were to choose friendship over love, I will choose friendship, cause that's the least I can do, for both Sunghoon and Suna.

"Thank you, Hoon." I said, before going to my own room.

I sit in front of the table with a diary in front of me. I always write about my unspoken feelings in this diary, it was very dear to me, since everything that I wrote in here, were all my feelings.

Dear diary,
today I've learned something from my friend, Sunghoon. He told me that my affection for Suna were pure love. I've never doubt myself, never in my life, I thought that my feelings aren't sincere, till Seungho told me it was just an obsession. I trust his words, cause I thought that was the truth, but it actually wasn't. What Sunghoon told me, were the real truth. He is a really kind guy, for telling that my feeling for Suna were sincere. I guess, this was the last time that I will be telling myself to love her. I will let her go, in this moment, please be happy with the love of your life, Suna, Sunghoon. I rather choose friendship, than to disturb their happiness.

I love you, Suna.

This is our end.