Motionless in White One Shots

Accident - Ryan

"Hey Ry, is y/n joining us for our celebration dinner tonight? I never asked, I know all the other girlfriends are going to join us," Chris asks Ryan, curious.  You and Ryan have been together for a few months now but he has not brought you around for anyone to meet you yet, everyone is interested in getting to know you.
"Yeah, I am picking her up later from work and we will meet you all at the restaurant.  She has been nervous about meeting everyone which is why I haven't brought her around quite yet," Ryan smiles when he thinks of you, he is really looking forward to getting to introduce you to his second family tonight.  If he had it his way he would have sooner but you were nervous about it, worried that being the boring school teacher you didn't think that you would fit in with any of them.  While he has reassured you otherwise your anxieties just have not left, in fact you are really nervous about this tonight.
"I didn't think about it being Friday, at least it's the end of the week and she'll be off for a few days." Chris says, trying to sound supportive towards his friend.
"Yeah, and it's fall break next week so they don't go back until Thursday so we have almost a full week together, we talked about taking a road trip somewhere starting tomorrow for a few days.  That way we can have alone time before the next tour hits."
"I'm going to head out to go shower before we all meet up, I will see you tonight Ryan," Chris says before leaving his friends house, they can continue to work on the new song tomorrow.
Ryan decides to go and take a shower himself before he comes to get you, wanting to refresh and have a clear mind when he sees you, excited that you are finally going to join him and meet the guys tonight. 
Stepping out of the shower he gets dressed and then gets in his car, ready to make the drive to your school and pick you up.  There is still time before you guys are all due at the restaurant but that doesn't bother either of you, he already knew you planned to change and freshen yourself up after he got you, that you wanted to go back to your apartment before you went to see everyone.
He messages you that he has arrived and waits until he sees you pop outside of the school, making your way over to him with a smile with your bag.
When you get in his car you lean over the center armrest to give him a quick kiss, lingering in the moment before pulling away to put on your seatbelt when he starts to make the drive to your place.
"How was your day, hopefully the kids were easier on you today than yesterday," he asks you as he softly grabs your hand with his, watching the road.
"It was, the kids were all pretty good today.  Honestly for a Friday it wasn't half bad, how was your day? Did you and Chris finish the song you were working on?" you ask, smiling at him.  You loved watching him when he was focused on something, whether it be driving or watching a show with you, whatever it is he is paying attention to.
"We did not, for some reason there is something that just isn't clicking.  We decided to just give up and call it a day as we both were getting really frustrated, sometimes it's best just to call it a day," you can see that he was a little frustrated while talking about it so you rub the back of his hand with your thumb hoping that he finds comfort in the touch.
"I understand that, at least we get a few days to relax and spend time together after tonight, I think that we both need this," you answer him softly, hoping he is as excited as you are about having this time together.
He pulls into your apartment parking lot, grabbing your hand as you both make your way into the building.  He takes a seat on your couch while you change out of your teacher's clothing into a decent pair of jeans and a nice tank top, touching up your hair and makeup before going back out and sitting next to Ryan, leaning your head on his shoulder.
"Thank you for agreeing to go tonight with me y/n.  I know that it makes you nervous but everyone will love you, you're going to fit in well." he says, lightly rubbing his hand on your bare arm as you sit there quietly.
"I'd be lying if I said I am not anxious but I have to eventually right?" you ask him softly, sighing to yourself.  "We should probably leave Ry."
"Yeah, I was just enjoying the moment.  Let's head out."
You both make your way back to his car so that you can start your way to the restaurant to meet up with everyone, not completely sure what you are currently thinking. As if Ryan can sense your hesitation he grabs your hand the second you are in your seat and turns to look at you.
"Seriously, don't worry about tonight. It is going to be just fine, I promise.  If you get too uncomfortable then we can leave." He says, now holding your face with a hand so that he can make you look at him.  You nod, not really having anything to say back.
Ryan pulls onto the road, starting his drive while you sit there quietly, watching out your window lost in your thoughts, not really paying much attention to anything, choosing to just think despite the fact that might not be the best thing for you to be doing.
Before either of you can process what is happening another car runs a red light, slamming into your side of the car, your door crumpling inwards, the window breaking covering you in glass as your head slams into the door making you black out almost instantly from the impact. 
Ryan slams into his door from the force of the other car, feeling the airbag hitting him hard, leaving him out of breath momentarily as he registers what happens.  He immediately looks over at you, panic and grief hitting him when he sees how bad of shape you are in.  Trying to undo his seatbelt so he can get to you all he can do is grab your arm, desperate to try and get your attention, try to get you to wake up despite the fact part of him knows that you are too injured to do so, losing a lot of blood from a couple of your wounds. 
He sobs, letting out a shaky breath, "I can't lose you, please. I love you y/n, hang on.  I can see lights coming down the road, they're going to help you."
When the paramedics arrived he wound up separated from you as they extracted you from the vehicle, being the most injured you were the first one to be transported out in an ambulance, the other driver and Ryan we're next as neither was injured quite as badly as you were.
At the hospital they bandaged Ryan up, he had a couple broken ribs and minor whiplash but nothing that overly bad minus the severe bruising where the seatbelt held him in his seat. He refused to leave, he wasn't completely sure what happened to you, they never told him other than that you had to be rushed back into emergency surgery.  They wouldn't tell him much as he isn't family, so he is waiting for your parents to answer the call and to give the doctors permission to tell him what is happening because they live out of state. 
He was trying his best not to break down and cry but it was becoming harder and harder the more time passed, he can't believe that this happened when everything was supposed to be so great.  He was going to tell you he loved you on your trip, the two of you had plans and he finally got to introduce you to his second family and this had to happen.
He feels a hand settle on his shoulder and looks up to see Rick looking at him concerned, Rick immediately pulling the taller man into a hug not really caring at this point who saw, just wanting to comfort his friend.  Ryan finally broke down in the hug, not noticing that the rest of his friends and their girlfriends had now joined him in the waiting room.
"Have you heard anything yet?" Rick asks him softly when Ryan pulls away from the hug.
"Not yet, they said they can't tell me anything unless her family okays it when they call because I am not family.  All I know is she is in emergency surgery, but I have no clue what for or anything." Ryan answers, drawing in a shaky breath and looking at everyone who has shown up in the waiting room. "She suffered a lot worse than myself or the other driver, they told me it was an idiot teen who was texting."
"I'm sure she will be okay, she's at the best place that she could be right now." Chris says giving his friend a small smile as they all take a seat with him, wanting to support him as much as they can.
A few hours later a nurse comes out, looking around the room at everyone asking for Mr. Sitkowski.  Ryan stands up and makes his way over to where the nurse was standing, eager to find out anything that he can.
"We got permission from Ms. y/l/n parents to update you and let you see her.  She is out of surgery, she wound up breaking her neck.  We did a surgery to repair it the best we can, she could potentially be paralyzed but we won't know that until she is awake and we can do further assessments. She did need stitches in several cuts in her face and head, and has severe bruising all over.  But, she is alive.  If you would like to, you can go back to her room, we can get you a blanket and you can stay as long as you want.  Normally that is reserved for family but we have permission for you to stay with her in her room."
He lets everyone know what he was just told, them all going home for the night, before walking back with the nurse, quickly moving a chair close to your bed so that he can sit next to you and grab your hand.  He wants to kiss your forehead, wake you up and let you know that he is there but he knows that he can't.   All he wants is to give you what little form of comfort that he can while you are laying there, still unconscious.
"It will likely be several hours before she is awake.  Would you like a blanket so you can sleep in the chair?" A nurse asks him sympathetically.
He nods, and gladly accepts the drink she hands him and the blanket before she shuts the lights off and he doses out.
He notices a little movement which quickly wakes him up several hours later, looking over at you.  He quickly smiles when he notices that your eyes are fluttering open, finally having the reassurance that everything will ultimately be okay.  He doesn't care if you wind up paralyzed, if you can't walk, all that he cares about is that you are awake and alive.  Tears falling down his face in relief when you look up at him and you squeeze his hand lightly.
"You have no clue how happy I am you are awake y/n.  I have been worried sick all night about you," he says gently, moving to kiss your forehead as he looks at you with what you can only describe as love in his eyes.
"You can't get rid of me that easily..." you trail off slightly, squeezing the hand that is currently holding yours.
He calls your nurse down so that they can do what they need to do, the surgeon himself coming in to do some tests and relaying the good news that you were able to wiggle your toes and move, so the paralysis risk is gone.  When they finish all the tests and leave your room you look over at Ryan, wanting to tell him something you found really important.
"I heard you, you told me that you loved me," you say softly, blushing as you glance at him.
"Yes," he responds back, not an ounce of hesitation in his voice.
"While you thought I was dying in your arms, in front of you," you say even softer, almost whispering when you make eye contact with him, while Ryan tries to figure out where you are going with this.
"Yes, I thought I was going to lose you," he responds, reaching to brush some hair out of your face where it hung.  Trying to distract himself slightly while he waits to hear what you have to say next.
"Well, I'm still alive.  Care to repeat that?" You ask, this time a bit more bold as you look at him, begging him to do so.
"I love you y/n.  The realization hit me when we were stuck in that car and I thought I was losing you.  I'm sorry it took me almost losing you to realize that," he says, kissing your forehead softly, not wanting to accidentally hurt you somehow as you laid in the bed looking uncomfortable.
"I love you too Ry, I wanted you to say it so I could say it back," you say gently, knowing that while you have a long road ahead that he is going to walk every step with you.  That he will help you with everything that you need, that he will love you and comfort you through this, and at that moment you knew that you could never let him go.  You two made it through this, you can make it through the recovery and anything else that you face in the future if you make it through this and you know that you can with him by your side.