Fire on fire (woosan)

Chapter 16

Ya'll i think I'm living my last days. The change of season flu got to me and I think this is it. I can't breathe through my nose and my throat is burning, the only thing left is for me to let my tounge out and I'll be a good doggie. Anyways how are y'all doing?❤️

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The next morning I woke up with a head splitting headache that didn't allow me to open my eyes immediately. What was I thinking getting that drunk? I'm gonna get a lecture from Yeosang about overdrinking or something along those lines. Yeosang. Then it hit me. Our little argument before I decided to get wasted. I've seen Yeosang pissed off before but not at me. Yesterday, for the first time, his anger was directed to me not some loser trying to hit on him. For the first time Yeosang and I fought, not a silly argument about hair colours or anything stupid we're always arguing about, a real argument where Yeosang was really pissed off. Yeosang has never been so angry at me like he was yesterday, even though I annoy him on a daily basis. I felt a painful tug in my heart and eyes sting with tears because the thought that I have pushed the only person who loved and accepted me for who I am, outside my family, away made me feel dejected. I didn't even realize I was alone in bed and my headache was long forgotten when I straight out sobbed like a baby. It wasn't long when the door opened and Keeho came in.

"Hey what's wrong?"

He hugged me rubbing my back and I cried harder. He didn't smell like strawberry like Yeosang did and his chest felt harder than Yeosang's. He held me like that for a while and let me wail like a dying whale. Oh the stain this would have on my reputation if this ever got out. I calmed down and my sobs reduced down to sniffles and eventually stopped. He let go of me and wiped my tears off. I'm sure I looked horrible but he didn't comment on it and I'm grateful for that.

"What's got you crying like that so early?"

"Me?"

"Huh?"

"I brought this unto myself so now I'm crying because of what I did. My own stupidity is catching up to me."

"Does it have something to do with Yeosang? Is that why you're not crying all by yourself and not to him?"

Is he a mind reader?

"Yeah. How did you know?"

"When you love someone you try by all means to understand them. And you're not that hard to read."

Did he just indirectly say he loves me? Nah I'm tripping. Anyways I need to take a shower and find Yeosang asap, it's been too long. I removed the cover and immediately a breeze hit my legs. I looked down and half of my thighs and legs were on display. I looked at the foreign shirt I was wearing and realized it was San's. I felt the embarrassment creep up on my cheeks and avoided eye contact with Keeho.

"Wow you guys are serious." He chuckled humourlessly.

"You know when I asked you if there was something going between you and San I was just searching aimlessly through the sand. I already knew the answer but I thought maybe I still stood a chance even though I was fooling myself. I believed your lie just to make myself feel better but I never stood a chance did I?"

"Keeho I honestly didn't know you—"

"Of course you wouldn't. Not when you have San. The perfect guy of your dreams right? I don't even know why I'm mad because I knew from the beginning."

"Keeho you—"

"I love you. I am in love with you. The moment you stepped inside the hall on our first day you had my heart. I loved your loud laugh, the 'I don't care' air you had around you and most of all the mole that glorified your smile more. I loved you before I even knew your name or anything about you. And when I finally gathered the courage to talk to you at the fresher's party, he took you away. I was so elated when I found out we were roommates but he's always ahead of me. I have accepted he's what you want."