As much as my body ached from the beating I got my heart hurt even more.
I've been with Tre from the time I was fourteen when I hit puberty, we've been friends for even longer so transitioning into a relationship was easy.
I was born abnormal, instead of a penis I was born with a vagina and an entire reproductive system. I didn't see anything wrong with my body until I became older and my mom let me know I was a freak and pointed out how freakish I was, after the bomb she dropped on me I turned into a loner out of fear, I've seen other kids get bullied and I was terrified about what would happen to me if something like that came out.
Tre was always there, he didn't understand why I changed overnight but he kept trying to be my friend which led to me trusting him so I told him. I was twelve he was thirteen he didn't react the way I expected just hugged me and told me it was ok, for a while everything was fine until I hit puberty and started filling out down there and I guess that's when he caught feelings, we were together right up until now.
Tre played in my face for eight years and I didn't see it because I was too happy having someone I could trust with my secret. Tre was a serial cheater and everyone knew even my brother who was his bestfriend, my own brother helped him keep his secret that betrayal hurt different.
When I found out obviously I confronted him and he beat me, he beat me so bad I couldn't hide it and had to go to the hospital to make matters worse I found out I was pregnant.
Now I'm here sitting in my room trying to figure out how far from home the money I saved up over the years would take me, I've thought about it for long enough and running away seems to be what's best for me. My mom doesn't care for me she rather her son that came out normal, my dad doesn't mistreat me just ignores me which hurts more, my brother is a piece of shit, Tre is an even bigger piece of shit and the people I called friends are his and my brothers friends. All those people I listed hurt me and I don't want to be around them I definitely don't want to raise my baby around them, if I keep it.
I have 20K in my savings account and 5K to hand. I tried that 5,000 in 50 days challenge and after completing it I never did anything with the money. My parents did ignore me but they gave me money so I won't feel left out, like one year they went on a family vacation without me and I was given money to plan my own vacation, how lovely of them. In this moment I'm glad my life sucks because I'd be fucked if I didn't have any money.
My plan is leave everything behind and disappear without telling anyone, the thought pulled at my heartstrings but then I had to remind myself they probably wouldn't notice I'm missing.
Bagatelle Gardens seems like the best option right now it's the furthest away and it's a decent enough place, whenever anyone notices I'm missing they'll probably go looking in some ghetto place like The Pines or whatever, I hope.
Opening up my laptop I start looking for places out there I hope to be gone before the week ends, I know I'm rushing it but I'm still trying to be careful I don't want to end up in a whore house that was advertised as a mansion. After switching to locations that offered online viewing my search became much easier, tomorrow morning at ten I have a live interview with the owner of a house that caught my eye, I was originally looking for apartments but I'm a pregnant man a house offers more privacy and it's best to raise a child in a house.
I'm a pregnant man, how does shit like this even happen? I know I was born with female parts but I'm still a man, men don't get pregnant. I really let Tre have unprotected sex with me and he was sleeping with other people this entire time, I feel sick.
What if he gave me more than a baby? I didn't even think about that, I'll give birth in jail if he did.
I have to go to the doctors tomorrow anyways I'll squeeze that in there.
"Yo." My traitor of a brother barges into my room. "Mom and dad will be gone for a day or two so I'm a have some company, you chilling?" I just stare at him, he doesn't know that I know and that's making me think, did he ever think about me not knowing did he ever feel guilty?
"No." He rolls his eyes.
"This why people in the group shouldn't be fucking, you and Tre got beef?" The nerve of this guy.
"Some like that." He hums and exits my room forgetting to close the door behind him.
"Yo!" I hear my brother yell. "Wassup with you and him?" My eyes widened.
I shot up from bed silently closing my door and locking it. The lights in my room were off so my brother couldn't see the bruises even if he could, what would it matter? He helped Tre cheat probably would help him give me another whopping.
My hands go down to my stomach, I'm a month along and never fucking noticed not like I would know what to look for, I'm a man I wasn't expecting to be put in a situation like this.
Opening the door to my en-suite I freeze at the sight of Tre coming through the other door that leads to the hallway, that door is supposed to be locked I always keep it locked.
"Ya brother lent me this." He waves a key in front of me.
I back out of the bathroom and slam the door, won't do much good.
"Babe..." Tre follows me into my room. "I'm sorry ok?" He reaches for me but I pull away.
"Sorry?" I laugh. "For what, for cheating or beating me what exactly are you fucking sorry about?" I snap.
"Everything." He opens his arms expecting me to run into them like I once would.
"You lost me Tre." He looks at me confused. "People do change overnight and I did, I'm not a kid anymore scared of everyone knowing I have a vagina so I latched onto the one person that knew." Tre smiles at me, it isn't his usual smile.
"So you're saying you wouldn't mind everyone knowing why I let you latch onto me all these years?" Tre pulls out his phone and shows me a video of him fucking me.
"Why?" My eyesight blurs from tears.
"That pussy too good for just the moment I gotta relive it as many times as I want." Tre is now in my face. "The way it's so warm wet and tight, the way it grips me, the creaminess and the way it squirts sometimes, so pretty fat and smells so fucking good." Once upon a time this would've turned me on and had me on my knees but now all I feel is disgust.
"I didn't consent to that video." I try to grab at his phone, Tre grabs my throat.
"Doesn't matter you're a man with a pussy everything else will be forgotten when people see that fat cat." Tre bites his lip.
I feel him press against me he's aroused, he can't be serious right now.
"Yall better not be in here fucking." My brother fights with my door.
"I wish." Tre laughs going over to let him.
The sight of them falling into casual conversation as if im not right there falling apart makes me so sick I feel like throwing up, I dart towards my bathroom only to black out mid sprint.
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I don't know how I feel about this chapter
But it gets better I promise. ❤️
