Different Timezones /Hyunlix/

38 - Friends

Ok, my brave readers,
it's cookie time!
For this chapter, take two 🍪🍪.
Please remember there are
no bad characters here,
just bad circumstances,
and - love is hard ❤️‍🩹.

- Hey. - Chan appears out of nowhere and sits on a floor next to Hyunjin.

- What is it, Chan?

- Listen, I didn't say anything when Felix was here. I kept my problems to myself.
But it looks like your love story is over.
I missed my chance to be with you once already. If you liked me before, there could still be a spark inside.
Before you find someone else, some other Felix, I want you to remember there was something between us.
I felt it, Hyunjin.
It was good.

- I know Felix and I are not a normal couple, but we didn't break up.
I want to do things right this time.

- Ok. I get it. - Chan lets out a long, sad sigh. He taps his knees a few times, and attempts to smile. - We're still friends, right?

- Yeah, friends.

- Good. And who am I kidding... I don't have any free time for a relationship anyway. I'd be a horrible date.

- Right.

They sit still like that for a little while, rewinding their deep thoughts. Chan is tracing a path on Hyunhin's hand with his finger.

Hyunjin is not doing anything wrong, just talking to his good friend, right? There is no harm in talking with someone he's been living with for the past six years. This is not just a random stranger, it's his friend. They know about each other more than he knows about Felix. Technically, Felix could have a boyfriend in Paris, and Hyunjin wouldn't know.

He doesn't move his hand away and just lets Chan trace an invisible message on his skin.
It's calming.
Comforting.
He feels his breathing slowing down.
Hyunjin is now relaxed, tamed.

Suddenly two fingers start putting a little bit more pressure on the skin. The movement is no longer calming.
It's more... intimate.

It spreads tiny electrical shocks through his body. This is how Felix made him feel. He misses that feeling. It's been so long, and Felix never finds time for him.

Chan slides fingers from Hyunjin's hand down to his thigh.
The alarm goes on in Hyunjin's mind. He should move.
Why is he not moving?

"I'll let Chan do this just for another millisecond, then I'll move away.
In a second, I'll move away.
I will."

Chan's hand slides between his legs, surprising Hyunjin. A little spark turns into a wildfire, it's been so long since he felt like this.

"In a second I'll move, in a second I'll push him away..
But what if Chan is right? What if the whole story with Felix is really over? Or, what if I don't feel anything with Chan? Wouldn't it be better to know now rather than later?
If something happens now, Felix would never know. It would be just a little moment in time. Just something that happened one morning in Seoul."

Hyunjin looks at Chan.
Up close, so close, it's like he sees him for the first time. His eyes are kind, almost scared.

Slowly, very slowly, Chan leans into a kiss, and Hyunjin doesn't move away.

Their lips connect.

It's a passionate kiss, a kind that makes you loose your breath. All the emotions that were piling up in Chan for months, finally release like an avalanche.

If this is the only kiss he's ever going to get, he'll take the most of it.

Hyunjin can't believe this is the same Chan who seemed so unapproachable last year. He doesn't hide anything now, you can feel in his kiss exactly how much he wants him. And he wants him so fucking much... he's not even worried that someone just passed by them in a hallway.

Chan hovers over Hyunjin and takes anything he can get from this little moment. He finally knows what it's like to kiss a friend who's more than a friend. He can't express everything he feels in words, so he tries to show with his lips.
Hyunjin hears his message.
He's worried because... he wants Chan too.

~~
On the other side of the world, it's a middle of a night.
Felix just ended his call with Hyunjin.
He's nervously rubbing his forehead. 

- Is everything all right? - someone asks in French with a very sleepy voice.

- Yeah. Go back to sleep. - responds Felix and lays back on his pillow.

But he can't sleep any more. 

*****

I know, I know...
you hate me now 😳.
But even the greatest love of all can have its weak moments. Nobody's perfect.

Things will work out at the end.
💕

*****