"Though I must go, endure not yet" - John Donne

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Though I must go, endure not yet

A breach, but an expansion,

Like gold to aery thinness beat.

Standing here now, I’m ready to say goodbye to everything. It’s easier for everyone this way, I don’t want to wake up if I’m not the same as before. I’m ready for it. Dad’s holding Ree in a tight hug, to comfort not restrain, but it helps anyway as she screams at Mum for choosing this, and Dr C. Malone too – funny I remember his name. They all have tears and I do too. Mum is leaning over me; her tears fall on my face. She grabs my hand, it’s a comfort for me just like it was on my first day of kindergarten, urging me to go forward.

They flip the switch.

I can feel the sheets around me, but they’re fading. The fingers touching mine are waiting for the call the doctors in movies always make and with everything I have left, I squeeze them. Everything freezes for a moment like in a time warp and I – 

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