Were we....meant to be?

Chapter 4

I still cannot believe that I finally saw her again.

"Mohit, Bro, Mohit!!"

I flinched, startled at the high pitch of his voice.

"Why were you not answering me ba-, hey!"

He rushed forward when he saw tears pricking near my eyelids. But, since, he knows me better than myself, He knows I will not cry.

"Hey....bro. what happened? why are you crying? Aren't you happy that we met Shrishti finally again?"

I shook my head and sniffed, not wanting my tears to fall.

"I-It's not that Rajiv. She.....she is hurt. Because of me. I--I hurt her."

I finally gave up and let a tear roll down my cheek.

Closing my eyes, I sighed painfully.

"She was so close to me, with me and yet--yet She was not the Shrishti I knew. She was not the Shrishti who felt comfortable in my presence. She was not the Shrishti who felt safe in my presence. I wish I could have told her how much she means to me, how much I love her, and I still do! After waiting for a long time, I still could not tell her my feelings. That much of a coward I am. Just because I'm fucking afraid!"

 I clenched my jaw and balled my fist. Finally, after sighing and wiping my tears, I faced him. he was having a pained expression for me. 

I smiled reassuringly at him. I couldn't stand talking about this topic anymore, I needed to change it.

"By the way, let's go. Otherwise, we will be too late and will not be able to sleep early. Due to which you will get eye circles and then no girl will consider you handsome. I cannot let this happen to my bestfriend. Can I?"

I nudged his shoulder playfully. Wanting this feeling of remorse to go away. But he knew me better. When I was about to pass from his side, he held my wrist, forcing me to look at him.

"Listen Mohit. I know how you love that girl and I also know that you never told her because you thought she doesn't share the same feelings. But.... promise me that if you got to know that she did share them, you will not her go. Not this time."

He tightened his hold on my wrist. I gulped and looked away but...

I nodded.

He dropped my wrist and gave me a soft look.

When we were on our way back to my condo. I gulped and asked.

"Do you....do you think she deserves me? I mean, she is a pure soul and....she is really nice to people around her and her smile is also magical that can make my heartbeat fast and I respect her decisions and everything she does is just...."

I stopped talking when he laughed. I frowned and looked at him, ready to argue. But he held his hand infront of me.

"Sorry. I was just thinking that how this thought even came to your mind?! You are either ridiculous or too dumb. And oh! By the way...."

He smirked teasingly.

"I thought you said you hate saying things which are cringe but....what's up with ' her smile is also magical that can make my heartbeat fast'"

he said sarcastically with quoting the line in air with his fingers. I knew I blushed but I wasn't the one to give up a banter.

My jaw dropped in disbelief. I was, again, about to make him take his statement back but....what he said.

"Did you heard yourself and saw the expression on your face when you were talking about her? It was the expression that says 'I'm completely and hopelessly in love with this girl that I only think and speak about her'. Seriously dude! YOU ARE GOOD FOR HER! accept it"