a book about Elora and everyone when they were younger to show you what led up to what you've read in previous books such as Falling in Love and Sweet. i'm writing this to give you all a background story essentially, i hope you enjoy it !
dark topic...
!!!! TRIGGER WARNING: SUBSTANCE MISUSE, SUICIDE ATTEMPT, MENTIONS OF AN EATING DISORDER !!!!
*months later*
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it's been a few months and honestly? i've been spiraling and possibly digging my own grave at this point.
my doctor stopped giving me my medications because i was going through it so fast which honestly i wouldn't blame them for it if i didn't depend on it but it severely pissed me off.
since then i've just been taking any and everything that i could get my hands on. i know i'm hurting myself in the long run but at this current moment, i just don't care.
i craved that feeling of nothingness, i loved when my brain would just turn off and i couldn't think of anything negative.
Tobi's POV
i'm at El and i's flat, some of our friends are over just to hang out. the only issue is i haven't seen Elora all day except maybe once.
i knew she was home but she's been keeping herself in her room most of the time, i don't quite know what's wrong with her but i really want to find out so maybe i can help her.
she's my best friend, i hate to see her hurting this way.
"you have any more sweets?" Simon looks at me.
"yeah, i just restocked them" i laugh.
he laughs and goes to the kitchen to grab a pack.
"NO YOU'RE FUCKING CHEATING" JJ screams.
"nah mate i'm just good" Ethan laughs.
they were playing Fifa and JJ was clearly losing, if you couldn't tell.
everything was going well until we all heard a loud thud come from Elora's room.
"what was that?" Josh questions.
"no clue" Simon shakes his head confused.
i get off the couch and try opening her door but it was locked so i pick-locked it open, rushing towards her bathroom.
when i opened the door, she was laying on the floor.. lifeless.
"FUCK" i shout, immediately kneeling down to see if she was breathing.
the others rush over and start freaking out.
"she's barely breathing, someone call an ambulance NOW" i demand as my eyes fill up with tears.
i wish i knew what to do in this situation so i could help her more but i don't.
i just grab her hand and hold it tightly "please don't leave me El, not like this"
my mind was going into these dark places, my heart was racing. i can't lose her. i need her.
Simon and JJ are on the floor with me trying to get her to respond as i begin praying but nothing's working.
after what felt like forever, paramedics finally arrive and ask what's going on before giving her a shot of something.
they take her on a stretcher out the flat and all of us are just pacing around, stressed.
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we all make it to the hospital and they said we could see her whenever she wakes up.
the doctor approaches us and brings us to a quiet room "who's Tobi?"
"that's me" i step forward.
"since you're on her paperwork, i can tell you what's going on. do you care if they hear it?"
"i don't mind" i shake my head.
"alright well, it appears that she's taken several opioids and ended up overdosing. from what we can tell, she also hasn't eaten for days which can lead to several dangers."
"the good part is.. she will be fine and her falling didn't do too much damage to her. biggest injury she got from it was a sprained ankle luckily. i do have some questions though so we know how to move forward with this whenever you're ready"
the guys and i look at each other confused and concerned before i look at the doctor again "i'm ready"
"do you know if this was a suicide attempt?"
i shake my head in disbelief "no, she wouldn't do that"
he nods and writes it down "is this the first time that she's OD'd?"
"yes, it's the first time" i nod.
he asks me a few more questions about her like what her birthday was and whatnot before he walks out.
everyone starts hugging each other in relief that she's okay "it's honestly a miracle"
"i can't believe what just happened, how did none of us notice this?!" i say getting frustrated, mainly with myself.
"how could we have? i mean i get she was being more distant but- fuck i should've checked on her more" Simon says putting his head in his hands.
Elora's POV
i slowly open my eyes and check out my surroundings, why am i in the hospital? and why do i have a walking boot on my foot?
the door opens and i see the guys walk in which confuses me more.
Tobi, Simon, and JJ rush over to hug me.
"you scared me to death Elora" Tobi says with a slight voice crack.
"i'm so sorry we're oblivious" Simon lays his head on me gently.
"what happened?" i ask quietly.
they explain everything from the bathroom to what the doctor told them which makes me feel uneasy.
"i'm so sorry- i didn't mean for this to happen" i look at them.
"please stop taking anything what you were taking before. it's killing you and you mean so much to all of us" Josh looks at me.
"i'm really sorry" is all i could get out before the doctor walks in with papers.
"so according to everything i've learned and seen, you're good to go home if you want to but you're home has been raided of all sharp objects and drugs" he informs me.
the guys nod and i just sit there in silence.
i mean don't get me wrong, i'm grateful to be discharged because i figured i'd be going to a mental hospital after what the guys told me but like- everything is gone..
what am i gonna depend on now?
A/N: this was the worst bit, i don't wanna make every chapter super dark so this is one of few left <3
