The random bursts of obsession/addiction-caused excitement scare me. They feel good at the time, yeah, but they really don't feel the way I feel at that moment. It feels like it really really doesn't belong. That scares me. Most of the time, I don't even know if it was caused by my obsessiveness or something completely different. It's usually caused by a random thought of my obsession(s) that I probably wasn't all that aware of.
It scares me a lot and I hate being scared. That's very contradicting to some other things that I feel. But oh well.
YOU ARE READING
A diary? Something about me?
RandomAll the stories I write. All the fantasies I come up with. And you'd read something about me? I'm honored.
